its one of the most memorable day in this life. Its time to welcome a baby girl in family. Prashantbhai is 'daddy' now !! and artibhabhi is 'mom'!! hey, its party time !! wow, that was great news that i received this morning. and everything was else was routine. Yesterday we planned out to wash all clothes in house, which costed $65 to mansi, tulsi and montu. hah !! i had some Ts and jeans, so i finished it home. We thought it would be sunny day today, but suddenly weather was changed this morning, which was nothing unusual. and while we were having good time, suddenly i shouted "bhaago", as rained started and we had all our clothes hanging outside. so it was a run to save the day. and than i was working on PC, which is very difficult to format. Its being used by 5 peoples, so u can imagine what kinda things you will find on that PC. and at this, that girl is telling rubbish things to her mom that how tough job she is doing these days. she is really perfect for doublr role. or more than double roles i guess. but lets talk abt job and jenny !! i met jessie and ivan this afternoon. jessie got that little baby bump on her belly ! that was great. they gonna have another big duty soon !! hah !! i dont know how does it feel, bcaz its a long way for me to feel that. jenny came down to have some ice cream, but i cudnt see her. and i kept working with iVan whole evening. now i m with some chocolate bars, 4 different flavors. hah !! just to celebrate herry's and new girl's birthday !!

i was f***ing tired this morning. i didnt wanted to leave my so called bed !! oh !! i can still feel that backache, caused by hard physical work on tuesday. but i had to go for a run, so wake up at 11. and i had job at night as well, and my all clothes were so dirty that i had to wash some of them !! so after washing some Ts and jeans, i went to job, where robert gave me a bad news that he wants me to work on tuesday morning. (i m dead now) !! hah !but i got enogh working hrs, so it doesnt matter. but i wanted some evenign shift, you know why !! yaa, thats the only way i cud spend some time with that shanghai girl !! but forget it !! who cares, i m going back to india. so these things shouldnt be bothering me !! some people stole liquor from the shop. and i know one of them !! so may be next time i can help a bit to solve this case. but john and robert were helpless to copy that roecording to cd. they were like little kids with that computer. and i was, encountering first time with that camera software, helping them to copy images and movies. that was shit !! they were illiterate or what !! anyways, jenny didnt appear today as she was out with her roommate. and i wanted to talk to megha, but shes busy with her exams !! god knows whats going all arond !! ok than, i m f***ing tired, so i m going to bed, bye bye !

after a long time i m scrapping something here. i was bit busy with family on vacation. Gold coast was a fantastic place, but i hated sydney !! anyways, i went to movie "texas chainsaw massacre" with Jenny. after a long time and so many fiasccos, we finally watched a movie. its "the wrong man" and "devil wears prada" and so many other movies we planned out to watch. but we ended with a chicken meal and a vege burger at Nando's and a 18+ horror movie at Melbourne Centar at 9 pm on 27th Nov. it was a good movie, partly inspired from a true story back in 1973. we had planty of talk abt my career (less on that) and her career(more on that) !! hah !! she sounds like she is bored with her job and wanna try out something new, but she cant decide what to do. she can not make new more friends, she was passing time with Crossword book, she watch movies alone and god know what else she does alone !! sometimes she just make me feel bore with her. but it was a nice evening with her. may be we will go again !!

woooooooooo ! ! its all vacation time. having trips around melbourne these days. !! they all came down at our place on tuesday. and we went to City Tour on wednesday and today........we went to Great Ocean Road for whole day. it was really fun !! they are feeling a bit bored but still enojoying. and we had all talk about all people in family. it was fun to know about all those kids doing great fun at home, back to india.

I knew that melbourne's weather is capricious, but I was not expecting SNOW FALL in SUMMER !! its out of mind.!! great !!

i was talking abt that chinese gilr to my parents, and fortunetly or unforetunetly, jenny met me on burke street. They were on the distance of 50 feet. i asked her to ocme and see my parents, but she was bit shy and waiting for tram, so refused to come accross the street !! but anyways, i will be away from this posting for few days. i m gonna miss megha and internet these days !! hah !!

after 362 days, i met my family face to face !! oh man, that was wonderful moments !! and i was really shocked !! my sis was totally changed. she almost half of what she was when i left india last year !! oh man!! i wish i cud lose weight like that !! my parents were as usual ! not any big difference !!
but i was really confused and tensioned ! i m in same situation right now !! i cud imagine what they will be expecting when i will be there in india !! and i m afraided and frightened and donno what kinda things i m feeling !! well, i gotta go now, i must sleep well. i have to wake up early 2moro !
but before that, i wanna tell that after a long time megha came online. it was a great time to chat with her !! wonderful. even when sometimes doesnt bother me, i pretend that its bothering me and try to send her msg to come online nad have chat with her. i m addicted !! its not goood, but i like that !! well, i really wanna write a lot abt her, but at this, 1am i want to sleep bcaz i have some plans for 2moro. so, good night and sweet dreams !!

it always happens !! when u have lots of work to do or assignments are due, people just find time to get online and love to have chat with you. but the moment u have nothing to do and just seat back and look at the celling, no one is there in yahoo, msn or google messanger. bull shit !!



another funny thing.....scene kaa kerosene ho gayaa !! me and jenny were about to watch movie "the wrong man" at 4 at melbourne central. but she didnt turn up!! i called her and send her msg, but she didnt replied. and hours later, she called me from her home and apologize for that !! what a shit!! what should i do?!! ruined my whole sunday!!

i donno whtas wrong with her !! she tells me that she feels very lonely in this city. so i planned out to have some fun and go for movie and dinner, but she didnt turned up. Last night i asked to go to Crown or go for movie as it was saturday night. But she was feeling sleepy !! hah !! she wants to be alone, and complains abt loneliness ! how can anybody help her out !! i donno !!


but it was wondeful day. its raining out and i have nothing to do. so i m doing NOTHING. just seat in front of pc, watch 3-4 movies at a time for half and hour, and than play game for 13 mins, than read time for 8.45 minutes, and then play balls for 3 mins....what a shit !! how can sunday be like this ! its all borign !! i rather do my job !

it was a great day. i watched Fight Club last night. it was a gr8 movie !! that movie has great dilouges. "u have to consider the probability that god doesnt love u. u r unwanted child of god. he hates you." and "self improvement is masturbation, but self distruction...." and "it only after you have lost everthing you have, you are free to do anything", and my fav..."the things you own, start owning you" !! brad pitt was great, excellent !!

and another thing i must write that i m drunk at this time. and i m feeling so good !! its like.......flying naked.....!! hah !! montu is also drunk !! but i think from this morning, i learned a new thing. if you read lmy last night's blog, you will find me blamming me others. but today i realise that its only me who can put me in situation i desire to be in !! Its only me who can controll me and my fate. of ocurse, god exists, but he will not do anything. It like....my story is written a way before, all diologues and scripts !! but its up to me what tone i can use to speak out those dioluges ! So now onwards, i will enojoy my victory and will not blem others for my failure !! fuck the rest of the world. i dont give a shit to this world. its only me who can help me to be where i want to be !!

well, i just planned out with jenny that we will go to watch " the wrong man" at 4 pm 2moro !! but lets see what happens. i dont give a shit if she says no !! this is the last chance for her. i want to be her freind, she feels lonely so i want her to take out and have some fun !! bcaz i feel the same! but i dont know whats going on in her mind. lets see what happens tomorrow !!!

i watched "jackass 2" with PM. it was great movie, a bit strange and wired, but its funny ! specially that stunt where 4 guys seat in a 'seasaw' with a bull !! hah ! that was great !!

and this is melbourne central where i watch movies !! and up above, there's an advertisement of iPod at Burke St !! and look at this Burke St. isnt it beautiful !!?

i go back to the day of results of 12th !! it was unbelievable !! i still remember each and every moment after entering into school gate. i was with my dad, parin and his dad. i was expecting 80%, atleast that !! and when i went to school, some classmates started greeting me for being first from the school. well, that i had not expected, and i cudnt believe me till UR Pater greeted me !! that was wonderful. my family was very happy, and i still remember that my parents arranged a party for that too............and today......i just gor MBA marketing degree !! wow !! how excited should i be..!! but its nothing that i can get excieted abt. to whom i share these feelings !! of course my parents will be here soon, in matter of hours !! But i can not feeel that way i was feeling on that day. i got distinction, credit and pass in each sunject. overall, i was good at study !! but who cares, as i realised that this piece of paper can not claim how smart or dump i m !! its only me who can judge myself !!

khushi came back from HP, and she said it was a great trip !!

and i m waiting for her to get online !! so many things to share......... oh come on yaar !!

he mess up with your life and will create 101 reasons afterwards that will make you feel that all those things went wrong were actually good for you. and we always like to make ourselves fool. He likes to mess up my life too. and i feel like a child, he will make my cry first, and will handle me a lolipop later! and that will make me happy too!! bullshit !!

it was a wonderful day. I went to CQU after a long time, just to print out my eticket. I think its all set and we will have great fun ! ! my family will be here on monday, only 3 more days !! Sejal was there too, at cqu. actually its time for results now, so we all waiting for it!!

at IGA, it was a different story. I was with iVan, and i think theres nothing to write much abt this. but jenny finished her exams today. Exam was pretty bad, but she was happy !! wow !! she came down to buy Henieken !! and than came again to ask me for some money ! sometimes i feel like we talk without using words. Chances are high of my being wrong, but who cares. It makes me happy, so i m gonna do that. I know its not gonna be for a long time, but lets enoy NOW !! i dont know about 2moro, so why think so long ahead !! ? we are planinng to watch a movie on saturday. nothing more than that !!

I know that it's wrong
but I keep hanging on
I know it won't be long
till I'll find out she's gone
And I'll be lonely again

This time, trying to be smart
and don't leave with my heart ....
.....the way I always do...

and still, i dont know whats wrong with megha's pc.!! it always happen !! wheneevr u runout of change, people ask for it. People always ask for a slab of beer that we dont have or it is at the bottom of 9 slabs. Always ask for thigns we dont have. same here. When i want to share somehitng important, she is not here. well, happiness has to be shared to feel that happiness. You just cant be happy by your self. I finished my masters, but i dont feel that excited, bcaz i dont have anyone to share that feelings. but i m fine. I will wait for her !! there are some good and bad and strange things i NEED to share with her !! oh megha, come back fast.......

hah, ha ha ha !! ha ha ha ha !! ......it was another normal day. !!! so trying to bring some jOy in life. so i m cracking jokes all around. And i was with iVan, so it was very hard to tell him a joke, believe me!! he is a nice guy !! but i like to spend time with girls, so i went next door with Elva and bonnie !! well, whatever, but these girls are really good at quick answers !! specially Elva...smart ass..ooooops....smart cow !! hah !! it was a joke abt 'ti ti' and a teacher in the children classroom !! very funny !! "the harder u rub it, the bigger it gets" !! but it was the one part of the day....most exciting news for today is.............my parents are coming here next monday !! hurrrreeeeeeeyyyyy !! its fun time !!! after one year, 364 days !! wow !! it will be great fun !! tomorrow i m gonna read their schedule and make plans !! really very excited !!

than i called bhai.........gopi bhai !!! she is always in good mood (or my call make her very happy??!!) hah !! yaa, she was happy, and it was 'lumbi juddai" from both of her boyfriends !! but i told her taht i am looking for a chinese chick, so may be i will not be available !! and they are tired of college, but as this is the last term, its gives some reliefe !! well in my case, i have results 2moro, i m worried and nervous. theres nothing to worry abt, but still, results always scare me more than exams !! but no worries, everything will be fine !! and if doesnt, who cares !!

it was a public holiday, bcaz aussies like to see hourses !! well, it was Melbourne Cup today, so it was a public holiday !! so i just finished the routine, charged the camera and went to city, without iPod !! i want to hear the sound of nature for a while. so i went to Fed sSqr and there were so many others to watch that cup on big screen !! it was a wonderful place to be. than i went to IGA where John left at 2, again, public holiday !! hah !! so PM and clovey, another chinese girl, were working there. and it was my luck that bonnie arrived before i leave IGA. so we had some sweeet sweet talk !! hah !! than its movie time ! me and PM wanted to watch a movie, dont know which one. so at melbourne central, we decided to watch Grudge 2. aaaaaah ! not so bad, it was a bit scary, 6.5/10 !! not so bad !! than i came home and download some music. nothing was unusual today !!

can u hear those bells??....if not, than visit Burke st., those christmas bells and stars will remind u that its Crishtmas time !!! I was there after finishing daily activities. Its melbourne cup tomorrow, so the place was a bit crowded ! and as usual, i was standing at corner of Burke st and swanston st.,witing for tram no 1. And suddnely, i heard some people clapping !! there was still some time from tram to arrive. so i just wanted to see whats going on at the entrance of Nike store. It was a unusual scene i could see. people, always with those white buds in ear, listening to two violinists. well, there artists were not like others. and that was making all people listen to them and clap. There was a girl, age of 10 and another of 6 or 7 !! and they were being cheered like stars by that croud !!they were playing their violin, like they were talking to it....i mean, really, you have to see it to beilve it. Their tunes were as beautiful as these two girls are !! wow ! I believe it was my luck that i got a chance to see and listen to them. It was not only me, but all people were standing over there, just listening to them, doing nothing else. it was great sight.

And what i watching on the other corner of the street??? a man and woman, standing there with a sign board of "free hugs" !! and they were hugging persons passing by. and they were getting good response too !! it was crazy at first sight...but was really nice to see that for a while...

and now its time for some action with Ivan and Bonnie....bonnie is a girl who pick up a cold water bottle from fridge and put it in microwave, because its cold. you got Bonnie, or do i need to give some more example?? ok, i asked her " so u r alone now?" and she replied, " even i know some jokes"...and she asked me " do u like Jemmie's SMELL'???" and i was like..........."what?? i never smelled her?" and she was like......"no no no, not smell.....smile....do u like her smile??" !!well, she was bonnie, a chinese girl (as far as i believe) !! She is nice, but sometimes she just cant handle it !! we were cracking jokes......and here comes her first joke.....she asked " what would u call a fat guy jumped from 20th floor??".........and can u imagine what she answered??? she said "dead fat guy"...now stop laughing....it was not that good joke !!! hah !! she's funny, crazy and a good girl !! hah !! it was great time pass time with all these guys at IGA. !! and then come some other guys from next door, Elva, the while chinese girl with Big **** !! hah !! she is great !! very quike reply !! u cant expect what she's gonan shoot next !! and when it come to all Elva, Jemmie and Bonnie togather...........that makes me helpless!! Elva and Bonnie tried to fix me with Jemmie, bonnei's roommate. !! are yaar, i cant handle one at time, and they want me to handle another girl !! Jemmie is a nice girl, but.....its not possible !!

And then comes the stonned girl !! busy with exams, or keeps her self busy with something or nothing !! she is confused....confused bcaz she doesnt know what to do !! alone and sad !! pretends something else while ivan is with me !! but behaves differently while there are only we two !! sometimes it makes me angry.....Ivan asked me what makes me angry. And i replied........I m so tired, just want to talk to my friend, but her computer is hangged up !!................and i again feel disconnected.....

"chau cha. yi chi pa chu chau change, te ushi reshu tyemli, aushi ashi shau sha !" " he he he", " chi sha la shi shau"...................u understand anything???.......neither me !! well, it was a conversation between jessy, jenny and cherry. what a debate it was. i though they were fighting, unless they start laughing. I hate this. It was torture for 10 mins. no no no, it continued for 20-25 minutes, but after 10 mins, i was fainted, my ears were not accepting that sound. I dont know what was that, but thank god, it finished !! Ivan sweped with jessy, so it was a good day for me! and one more thing, when i entered into IGA, john and rob were leaving. so it was something more than a good day. hah ! well, it was not busy, so i called up jenny, but didnt talk to her. and she came down with her arms around her belly with same old fashion. she is really cute !! and i realised she is more beautiful, when cherry was also there with her. it was a nice talk with those chinese ladies. i dont know actually, i hardly had chance to understand and reply in their debate !!

and i just finished a chat session with her !! its 2.44 am and she sent me msg at 1.30 to get online !! i dont know whats this. she was asking me how she was looking at that night when she came down with make up. she was asking me to desribe her in words. she was asking to wheather she is pretty or not? may be she was drunk. may be she had something to share. may be she is hidding somehting to herself. may be she lost her way. may be she was feeling so lonely. I tell u what, this melbourne .............. its better to have someone very close and trustworthy to live life. I m missing taht part of life too. everyone is running around for them selves. its so alone and isolated here.......

it was a very quiet at IGA tonight. very unusual for saturday night. It was only $6000 sale when i left at 11.20 pm. But i spent most of the time next door. Elva and her friend Jemmi were working there. If IGA was quiet, that store was DEAD. I was talking to them for 30 mins, and may be 4-5 people came in, out of them only one guy bought some chocolates, and other just came to use ATM !! hah !! they make sale of $400. hah !! but had some fun with those girls. And suddenly Jenny droped in. I dont know whats wrong with that girl. she ignores me in front of other people !! i think she pretends like this, but dont know why? she came down to have some red wine and to smoke. but she desided to talk with david, and she kept ignoring me. But I know that she was pretending infront of others. and than she send me sms to thank me for nothing, like she wanted to start conversation. But these is what i think. i can never know whats in her, or any other women's heart !! And i dont want to waste my time after makig thesis on this. so wanna left all these behind, and will accept the fate as bonus.

More and more I'm forgetting the past
more and more I'm living at last
Day by day I'm losin' my blues
more and more I'm forgettin' about you
But oh how hard I'd tried to keep you by my side
And oh how I cried the day we said goodbye
Day by day I'm losin' my blues
more and more I'm forgettin' about you !!

well well well, this was not just like another day. I spent half of the day preparing my new website. and after that, according to plan..i went to watch SAW 3 with Ivan. it was nothing but copy from saw 1 & 2. Its just abt the theory of Jigsow, nothign new. It didnt scared me, but it was a bit creepy and gruesome. specially that brain surgery and sqeezing alive human, and the most...PIGS !! that stinks. and after that, me and Ivan went to his place. this was the first time i went to his place. I though my room is very messy, but today i realise that ivan is here to accompany me !! hah !! but i bet, my room is messier than his. He got nice Apple Macintosh !! its cooooooooool ! i would love to have one like that. and then, its pizza time. I went to an italian pizza house with Ivan and her beautiful wife, jessy !! It was a great dinner talk. An indian, a collumian and chinese were talking about their cultures and their point of views.!! and while walking down that dark streets, we were talking about our culture and another serious topic of jenny. we end up with a laugh as we decided that its a small matter and dont take it seriously and dont make a big issue out of it. and i should not be even talking about this here.

while coming back from thier place, i realised that every one has his own world in his mind. There is an illusion and there is a reality. and human nature is such that people like to enjoy illusions. Even i believe that i have a world in mind and i m the king of it. and i decide whats right and wahts wrong. I make my own choices. sometimes my behaviour is accepted in real world, and sometimes i get rejected. But who cares. i like to like by myself. I love myself. Osho says that expectation from other people is the root of sorrow. He makes this things clear of "raag" and "dhwesh" !! When we expect that other people will make us happy, that creats "raag" and when they faile to make us happy, it will create "dhwesh" !! His magical language and speech purifies my soul, and helps me to bring myself 'high'. He helps me to enjoy my company. And i believe if i dont enjoy my comany, ....who will else???

3 things u can never predict in melbourne......weather, work and women !!! its summer time here, but it was raining this morning....like its Cherapunji !! i was waiting for it to stop, as i had some plans for tonight !! fortunetly, god listened to me, and switched of that tap and rain stopped ! But before i impliment that plan into action, i had to visit Rasminbhai. its been a long time i went to their place. In melbourne, we students live very busy life. Job, study, uni, assignments....and public transport....all sucks. So its usual to visit friend's home once in blue moon !! same here, as i visited his place last semester. its been more than 100 days. So i went there and then.....i went to IGA to meet Ivan. He was suffering from a great pain, called Bonnie. He is ........oooooops.....she is boring, according to ivan. But i dont face so 'dengerous' situation with her. I think iVan is more wiered than bonnie. well, every person has different point of views. BUt Ivan was like.................sick while working with her. So i went there with PM. Than, me and ivan had some smoke, while i send a text to jenny to have smoke with us. but she took little time. and i had to go to a 'place', so i just left IGA !! me and pm went to ********************************************************************************* !!!

while i was coming back home....i dont know why and how....but at 12.15 am at midnight, i received a sms from Jenny. and we kept sending message to each other for 30 mins. wow, never happened before. It was gooood !! she has exams next week, so she is bit busy with that. and after that, i would like to go for a movie with her.!! but before that, me and ivan planning to watch SAW 3 2moro. the first 2 parts were awesome, so expectations are bit high. then lets check it out this third part.

nothing new about today, except PM gor drunk in the morning !! I dont what happened to him, but i think he liked that Jack Denial that we had last night. And he decided to pour some more into his heart this morning. and he was out of control. Oh man, he was rocking ! I had to go to see him at his college. then we went to go for some shopping, where i didnt buy anything ! i m running out of money these days....hah !! I was planning to visit annirudh for a long time. and I spared some time to have one of his dish, but it was not my luck. and he had to go to footscrey urgently. So i directly came back home. And once again, i enjoyed those beans and bread with kaushal. And we had some 'financial' talk as well. oh man, thats something i dont like to do much, but can't escape ! And after that, i was watching A Beautiful Mind when Megha dropped in ! and i can posepon my death to have chat with her !! so we had chat, and than i called up india. And I must say it was a big trouble. I think i m gonna face a terrible situation in near future. oh god, save me !! i dont want this to happen......i Dont know this wont happen, but still i m scared !! And i m not gonna reveal what trouble i m talking about. and now i m watching to A Beautiful Mind...........Dr john Nash........coool movie, but i think The Departed is better !!

i wrote these lines to megha.....

Jo kahi gayii naa mujse, woh zamaanaa keh rahaa hai
ke fasaanaa ban gayi hai, meri baat talte talte.....

shab-e-intazaar kabhi hogi muktasar bhi?...
Yeh chiraag buz rahe hai, mere saath jalte jalte....

yu hi koi mil gayaa tha, sare-raah chalte chalte...


these lines are from song 'chalte chalte', and its awesome !!