i dont know from where to start......i was waiting for final day of exam of my friends. and today was that day, but it was not that exciting day at all. but it was the day when i learned how to PRETEND to be happy. hah !! i totally agree with Pink, GOD is a DJ and life is a dance floor. and he makes up dance on his own rythm.

megha's leaving for Pune next week. i think its too early, too early for me, hah !! and at this time i m listening to "leaving on a jet plane", that helps me to picturise something. but i really "hate to say good bye". even though she was a Silent Piece of Art by Mr. God, she was a gr8 friend to be with. anyways, its all her life, and she has made her decision what she wants to do.

and there are some comments i have marked in my private diary, that only one person can read.

today, i find my self little alone. i was wondering to whom i shud talk?? but i cudnt find anybody around, so i just kept myself busy with something and something. but at 9.30 pm, on saturday, again i have nothing to do and i m all alone in this office. so i just started writing down. and i really can not write what i want to write.

and it really doesnt make any difference what i think, what i like, what i love, what i hate, who makes me feel good, who makes feel high, who makes me smile, whom i m love.................because everybody got their god damn life and their fucking problems, and no one has time to read this blogs. all i m suppose to do to pretend to be happy......

i was at gandhinagar, at collector's office, and i had to wait for 2.3 hrs for nothing. i hate to visit any govt office. it gives me very bad bad feelings and i feel really fish out of water, very unsecure. but something u have to do. this was one of them. lets hope that we get for what we were waiting there. it will be dream project than.

i m losing some weight these days. it was 87.5 kg today, and it was 90.3 kg on 11th april. i guess i m going good. i dont want to do any crash course. i talked to mansi, srujal kumar and sejal dd today. she was really confused on whose behalf she has to attend marraige. its too early to worry abt all these things sejalben. anyways, mansi got her all paper ready and will submit 2moro. everything was going as usual, nothing much different. but i dont know why i m feeling little down, so i gotta go now. so catch u later. and yaa, i still didnt get whats Agyat vaas, i love to be alone, but thats enogh for maximum one day. i donno how mansi can manage it for 2-3 years. !!!

its 11.41 pm and i shud be home at this time, but somehow, today i dont wannna leave this chair and wanna keep on writing. from this morning, i had some bad bad intusions in mind. i was not feeling good. may because whats going around me. i m a very practicle person and i can face such situation easily. but somtimes, its difficult to see your dreams washed away like this. you can't see your love once fighting. its difficult. and in such matter, its difficult to judge right and wrong. its difficult to analys both sides of coin. but its all god's wish, and i can see whats on his mind. and i believe that his decision will make everybody happy, atleast those who deserves happiness and peace.

and than i gotta call up that girl. i dont know from when i started worring about her, and why. but she is the first Tansion Tablet in my life. oh god, i never ever had any tension in my life. but sometimes its good to have some tension, just a little bit. and thank god, i can talk to her in straight way, no more beating around the bush, straight to the point. i am Early waiting for her to see at ahmedbad airport on Internation arrival section, i will be there to pick her up. But today, i was feeling little down, so just wanted to had little talk with her. but we started discussion on a different topic, that might made her little angry on me. but i feel sorry for that, i didnt mean that. I just wanted to say whats on my mind, because i was worried abt her.

sometimes you just look at the reasons that god creats to change your life. i dont know why i decided to go australia instead of United Kingdom.?? I changed my mind to fly to australia only 2-3 days before i was about to apply for UK. why parin decided to go to UK insted of australia.?? and than why my mom suggested to stay with her?? why we sticked togahter even when i used to hate her?? and why she used to call me her first and no 1 bf ??? why she straighten her hair, one of the most imp characteristic of my dream girl?? why she is the only child of her parents, another characteristic from my wishlist. and there is a hugh list i can write down on this topic. but the main point is god is great. and i used to believe, and i strongly believe, and i will believe that god always makes the right decision, he is not like me or mansi or PM or srujal or khushbu, ha ha ha !!! ! just kidding. never mind.....may be all listed reasons are not enough to justify what i m saying..but who cares, I m not here to ask your justification and dont need your certificate. GOD has decided something for me, you and for everybody, and i wanna stick to his decision, his sweet decision, his harsh decisions, his bitter bitter decision, and sometimes his decision to make me wait for his decision !!!

and come on yaar, leave any comments atleast !!

life is full of shit these days, and i find myself among so many problems that i can hardly solve. but thats life. it will be insipid if u dont have to face problems. but problems like these are difficult to face. anyways, its all fate and dastiny. Everything happens for a reason, everything has a season, its all come and go.

mansi told me that whenever we face any problem, we wish we could solve it and wish everything will be fine after that. but it doesnt happen like that and another problems will be waiting for you to solve the preceding problem. so just face problems with whatever u have.

and i guess she is right. its like waves of sea, unlimited, unstopable and countless.

apart from these, everybody is damn busy with exams. I pass my day with some work and co-workers. but i get bored after 8.

gym of going excellent. it was 88.750 today, and i began with 90.3 on last wednesday. so pretty coool for me. i m targeting to lose 15 kg by 15th august, in 4 moths of period. and i m ready to do that.

90.3 !! no no no, its not Radio Mirchi, its an amount in KG. yaa, as on 11th April, 2007, i was weighted as 90.3 kg. and now i have decided to pull it down to 75 in 5 months. so 3 kg a months to lose. for that i have joined Parsana Health Club. its difficult to wake up at 6 in the morning. but i gotta do that. so this is something new in life. i had nothing to do today, so i went to Crossword just to pass time. where i came across Abdul Kalaam's autobiography, Wings Of Fire. its was simply superb. i vote him for next president of india. than i went to call up mansi. its was feeling good to talk with her. PM was not there, he was on job. god damn, i wanted to talk to him but he was not there. anyways, i will call him later. actually i went to mansi's home last night. it was a strange experience, i was fucking confused and was feeling little "fish out of water" !! but i gotta used to all these. damn, its too early for me, dont u think so??

lots of things going around these days. and the hottest thing is SUN OF SUMMER. its getting crazy now. i can not survive without ac. its fucking 40 C now. and more over, Kaushikbhai broke his leg ystrday. so he is getting rest for a week. mansi called me yesterday and we had a long drive....i mean i was driving while talking to her, so its kinda a long drive...hi hi hi !! its always fun to make her go crazy and angry. i bet if she was in india, she would have killed me.!! hah ! megha, khushi and gopi are busy with their final final final exams. and jimesh too. everybody will be busy with job right after their exams. so i m getting my srlf busy with so many things. theres not much to do, but i have to find out something to do. at this moment, we are plannign to buy that Sughad land, and lets pray god that we get it soon. its a PERFECT location and we can develope that area at its best. but before all these, we need to buy it from gov. PM got a chance for a new job, next to IGA. its a gr8 news. it will help him to get work experience hours as well. pretty good. thats it for now, i dont wanna streach it long. so c u soon !!

singapore trip was awesome, more than awesome if we remove those 3 days on CRUISE. hah !! Night Safari made me fall in love with mother nature. And Songs of the Sea, musical fountain show was extra ordinary, more than that. Patronus tower and KL tower at Malaysia tower was great. overall, this was an awesome trip with all family. and how can i forget to tell u about the Big Scene at Singapore airport. i had almost missed the plane to India while i was busy talking with mansi. oh god, i was literally beaten by all bros and bhabhis.

and now, back to india, i m busy with all chores around me. so many things going around in family. its like enjoying all colours of life when u live with a huge joint family. i will talk on this later, as its always fun !!