this world is a very cruel place. pain of one is joy for other. defeat of one is victory for other. and some people talk abt god. hah !! i am not even sure about his existance. its not that i m against him, but i m not by his side as well. i believe discrimination is the biggest sin human can committ. but how god can do that?? sometimes i wonder watching those children in air condition cars, screaming for Big Mac at McDonalds, toys and ice creams, new clothes, special gifts every christmas. and when i look at those pictures from middle east and africa, i hardly differenciate a skaleton and those black, skinny, hungry, naked, barefoot, uneducated, homeless children. how can god do this to their children? this is not fair. and i cant help it but watch this. of ocurse, i would like to do what ever i can.
watched ivan's video. it was cooool. he is a great man and good phylosopher. i believe a man can be a happy man if he has a nice wife, otherwise he becomes a phylosopher. hah !! just kidding. no offence jessie. just like ivan, even i get upset at beach. i dont know why but it makes me feel so down. its like yellow colour, anti-energy, or say energy sucker. so i prefer not to go there. but how can i forget taht 31st December 2005. it was one of the most beautiful nights in this life. it was the first time i got drunk. getting drunk is a great light feeling. sometimes i jsut get tired of being rational and wise. sometimes i just want to unfold myself, lose control, lost track, fall in love, sleep in arms, talk about stupid things, want to be stupid, fly naked, kiss that girl, scream, sing along with radio, stay awake all night counting stars with her, and so many other things. when i get drunk, i can lose myself. actually i believe that there are 2 person inside me. one is wise and makes rational decision. and another just believe in fun and enjoyment. he doesnt care abt all shit of world, just listen to music, dance, watch movies, spend money, makes wrong decisions and laugh at those bad decisions. but sometimes, i jsut get myself stucked between these 2 guys....