2 days of hope and eternal life of helplessness !!

71/365 sweet raptured light it ends here tonight, originally uploaded by sad feeling™.

i never thought that life would turn like this. last 3 days changed the way i was thinking abt life, people and god. 2 of them were in hospital, where 500 people were praying to god for a person to get up and smile. but i found my and their prayers unanswered. but god should have listen to at least those 2 innocent children's prayer. but he didn't. he just do what he wants to do, never care for anybody. i used to think that everything happens for a reason, for a good reason. but this incident changed my point of view. god is so rigid and merciless that he will do whatever comes to his mind. i dont know what was her mistake that took away her life, but as far as i know, she is the most graceful, chearing, charming, loving person in our family, and of course, in her family too. she never had fight with anyone, she never thought bad things for other. she was the source of happiness among all those sisters and her sisters-in-laws. i m not just saying all these things just for the sake of saying, but its damn true. and we feel miserable on lose of such a soul.

she left a girl of 15 and a boy of 10 behind her. now who will take care of them? is there anyone who can fulfill the place of a good mom for those kids?? i think even god himself cant play that role. god cant do anything ! i think hes helpless too !! he is hopeless !

when i was in hospital with KK, he used to tell me all those things abt their life. how she used to remind him to take medicine on time, how she used to take care of him, her kids and her parents in laws, how she used to call him 3-4 times a day just to make sure that he is safe and sound. but now, ..........i dont have words to explain his agony.

i always believed that god is great, and he can never think bad for anyone. and he always has good reason behind whatever he does. but i cant find or see any good reason behind whatever happened in last 3 days. pls make me believe that this is just a bad dream, and i will wake up soon.