its been a week i wrote my last blog. and life is completly changed in last week. i moved 10000 miles away, far away from Melbourne, in india. India is the place where i belong. but after spending few months in melbourne, i dont feel like that anymore. i wish i cud fly back, but i think i can not. the decision is mine, and i can make my choice. but it will take a lot of tears. and i can not bare that. so i m happy to be here, in india. and it will be better to be here. now i m at the stage where i need to make another decision. and this will be the toughest decision i will have to take. god help me. i dont know what to do in this situation, and by thinking this, i m just hammering my mind. feels like my mind will blow off soon. may be i need a doze of beer and have dreamles night. may be i need to i need a barrle of coffee to bare this headache. all friends in india are busy with exams. so i m complatly alone. and this makes these moments more painful. may be i need some help, i need to rest in arms, but i can not find that. fucking shit. what i m writing about. today was one of the greatest day of life as it was Bhoomi Poojan for new bunglows. this was the moments we all have been waiting for years. and its begain now. i m waiting for the Vaastu Puajan day. its gonna be another celebration for ahmedabad. but for this moment, i dont know why my head is spinning.