2 days of hope and eternal life of helplessness !!

71/365 sweet raptured light it ends here tonight, originally uploaded by sad feeling™.

i never thought that life would turn like this. last 3 days changed the way i was thinking abt life, people and god. 2 of them were in hospital, where 500 people were praying to god for a person to get up and smile. but i found my and their prayers unanswered. but god should have listen to at least those 2 innocent children's prayer. but he didn't. he just do what he wants to do, never care for anybody. i used to think that everything happens for a reason, for a good reason. but this incident changed my point of view. god is so rigid and merciless that he will do whatever comes to his mind. i dont know what was her mistake that took away her life, but as far as i know, she is the most graceful, chearing, charming, loving person in our family, and of course, in her family too. she never had fight with anyone, she never thought bad things for other. she was the source of happiness among all those sisters and her sisters-in-laws. i m not just saying all these things just for the sake of saying, but its damn true. and we feel miserable on lose of such a soul.

she left a girl of 15 and a boy of 10 behind her. now who will take care of them? is there anyone who can fulfill the place of a good mom for those kids?? i think even god himself cant play that role. god cant do anything ! i think hes helpless too !! he is hopeless !

when i was in hospital with KK, he used to tell me all those things abt their life. how she used to remind him to take medicine on time, how she used to take care of him, her kids and her parents in laws, how she used to call him 3-4 times a day just to make sure that he is safe and sound. but now, ..........i dont have words to explain his agony.

i always believed that god is great, and he can never think bad for anyone. and he always has good reason behind whatever he does. but i cant find or see any good reason behind whatever happened in last 3 days. pls make me believe that this is just a bad dream, and i will wake up soon.

When my time comes,
forget the wrong that i've done,
help me leave behind some,
reasons so to be missed.

Dont resent me,

when you're feeling empty,

Keep me in your memory,
leave out all the rest.

A bus with window a.c.

Its funny, isnt it?

d way u hate me !!

I HATE .., originally uploaded by M!$$ BLinG ♥Leaving flickr in 2009♥jaded >_<.

i just love .............................
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d way u hate me ..........................................on day 35 !!

On diet !!!

Ya. Freeze is full of chocolates. But ........ I cant even touch them. Cant eat till . . . . . . . . !!

this is what i need to realise !!

[*&!] razorblade, originally uploaded by idolumvisions.

Damn, i broke my laptop.

Broken vision of laptop.

Ugly, originally uploaded by aalexa.jeann.

she says "leave me alone !!"

she doesnt wanna talk to me!!

Hung up, originally uploaded by .: MiNA :..

i donno what went wrong. i called her up, but she was not interested !! she just hung up !! i was waiting for her call back !! but ...

anyways, just another bad day. shit things happen in life. u get rejected, being hated, being asked to many rubbish Qs, wrongly expected, taken for granted, kicked away, used and ect. list goes on and on. life sucks a lot these days.

feels like i have lost something so special, special like oxygen for life !! i never used to be like this. i was so careless and tensionfree. but now its changed. will i have to keep waiting for the rest of my life ?

Pm gone shahid

PM with his new family.

Stop Behaving like a Joker Ravi !!

tears of a clown, originally uploaded by Misteriddles.

i had really bad bad start of the day. actually, yesterday has a worse end. woke up at 4 to call up mansi. shes little busy with her jobS !! damn, i m the only fallow with lots of spare time. but anyways, it was sunday, so i had some more spare time today !! hah !! u see, i just start making joker out of me. i m not feeling good today, not feeling good at all. dont know whats wrong, but somethings wrong. may be i m just too aggressive or may be too possessive !! dont know. anyways, sorry for everyone i hurted. i will try to make my self a better person.

Mt Abu

Nelly Furtado singing Kabhi Kabhie

Will smith singing Hindi song

DEKHA HAI AISE BHI

She wil be loved

saurin in bathroom

i just forgot this !! hah !!

yaa, I really miss you !!

I miss you, originally uploaded by CHRISaewsfd.

Sunset balloon flight, originally uploaded by Axel-D.

i want to write down something, but as usual, i cant the word that can explain what i m thinking. may be this picture can describe something. just like that balloon, i m flying alone. theres is no limit or destination for that balloon, and it neither have that direction as well. the embiance is too sad, may be. same with me, i m a man without any direction and destination. just letting the life draw me where it wants. all the time, i let other people decide what i m suppose to do. not abt perosnal life, but talking abt professional life. i always have power to change my fate, but somehow, i lake that self confidance, that other people can simply shake it easily. but sometimes, i m my own worst enemy. most of the mind i can not make up my mind. my heart belongs to melbourne, but i have to, have to and have to stay here in ahmedabad, for one or other reason. i simply cant choose what my heart wants. may be i m waiting for a miracle, or an opportunity to just leave all worries and fly away somewhere.

but at this point of time, i m completly alone, lost, blankminded, blind, thought less, helpless.

just one of those days...

just one of those days..., originally uploaded by theshanghaieye.

walk alone

You'll never walk alone, originally uploaded by I have a bad cam.

these days i m going through a better, within myself. and i dont know what to do. i m really confused. i m feeeling so alone and isolated. i have lost the direction. or i cant see the light in the darkness. i miss a company. i miss a support. i need that rocket force to start the engine of my mind. oooh god, i m going trough so many personal and semi personal problems. damn....life is miserable.

all i need is just a power start, i just need to develop that 'Go get it' attitude !!

walk alone

You'll never walk alone, originally uploaded by I have a bad cam.

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...



Boulevard of Broken Dreams
by Green Day

Mansi's new venture

Good bye pooja

Jay Ambe

Rain drops in summer !!!:(

The day and the time.

1st april, 8 pm.

Boiled vegetables

Ouch. It hurts.

Indian beans.

At Gopi's wedding

A moment to remember at wedding day of one of the dearest friends.

Archana's wedding

Garba party of archana

Mom n dad at garba party.

Garba party of archana

Mom n dad at garba party.

Vodafone

Vodafone store at satellite.

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happy moments

DSC00160, originally uploaded by ravirpatel_india.

this is one of those happy and beautiful moments in australia, Dec 2007. man, i was pretty busy that i cudnt write much for a month. well, its 1st jan of 2008 and wanna wish all a happy new year. it was great party last night, speciallly becaz it was new year eve!! well, the main reason of celebration was tulsi's birthday. we had good dinner at Fusion, and i cant wait to see those videos and pics we had last night. i was not drunk than, but i realised that wine taste good and it also gives u wings otherthan redbull. but damn, i was really drunk after few drinks that i had after finishin the party.

on vacation

Melbourne City Views From Albert Park Lake, originally uploaded by Dean-Melbourne.

its been a week landing on the land of aussies. the day at singapore was the most silent day of life. but not a single moment after that day was came with silent n peace in melbourne, unless i had bedrest caz of cold and fever. coming back to this place helps me to re-evaluate the 2 different scenarios of 2 different beautidul places, melbourne and ahmedabad. on my way back to india, in feb 2007, in flight, i was thinking abt that melbourne is the best place to live. But spending 10 months in india, i realise that melbourne is the best place to spend vacation time and to get relaxed. but ahmedabad is the best place on earth, except those heavy traffic and pollution. the food, ice creams, cloths, shopping, friends, relatives, movies, time pass...where else u can get all this things. India is really a FREE COUNTRY indeed. people can park their vehicle where they want, they can blow horn, ride between lanes, go trough red lights, padastrians can walk on red signals, through theie rubbish anywhere they want, break the laws and do whatever they want. melboune is kinda sophisticated and very organised place. everything is looks so scheduled and planned that life seem pretty boring and routine.


well, but my intention to visit..................revisit melbourne was totally different that i m going to tell u. i came to celebrate the christmas, and i really dont know how to do that. i just came to see old friends and re-live those moments of last year. but as i m feelin little sick, i think i will enjoy melbourne after few days.

waiting...waiting........and waiting

singapore airport, originally uploaded by sashax.

last night i started my journey to melbourne. i was really excited to visit my second home. but the most annoying thing is the journey itself, specially bcaz i m flying alone this time. and i dont have ipod as well. flght to singapore at midnight was really hactic and boring, so i had little drink and good sleep of 4 hours. right now i m at changi aiport, the best airport of the year, 2007. really a nice place to be at, but i m really getting bored here as i have wait for 12 hours before i get on board for melbourne. so lets see, waiting for someone or anyone to pop up online.

wait for me

first impressions, originally uploaded by mugley.

yaa, its almost end of waiting now. will be on my way to melbourne, again, in few hours. i m so excited that i cant describe that in words. and marriage sesson is on at home as well, so i m little rush of shopping as i wont be available here anymore, for next whole month.

unfaithful

unfaithful, originally uploaded by shmooo5i....ғάηтαşţίc④.

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

Hes more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be..."A murderer"


I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well


Our Love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore..anymore