What I’ve Done

In this farewell,

There’s no blood,

There’s no alibi.

‘Cause I’ve drawn regret,

From the truth, Of a thousand lies.

So let mercy come,

And wash away…

What I’ve Done.

I’ll face myself,

To cross out what I’ve become.

Erase myself,

And let go of what I've done.

Put to rest,

What you thought of me.

While I clean this slate,

With the hands, Of uncertainty.

So let mercy come,

And wash away… What I’ve Done.

I’ll face myself,

To cross out what I’ve become.

Erase myself, And let go of what I've done.

For What I’ve Done I start again,

And whatever pain may come.

Today this ends,

I’m forgiving what I’ve done.

I’ll face myself,

To cross out what I’ve become.

Erase myself, And let go of what I’ve done.

What I’ve done.

Forgiving What I’ve Done.

long drive makes day short

5 1/2 hrs drive to Toronto, originally uploaded by Erik De Leon.

it was a wonderful day out with dignesh, bhoomi and mansi. sometimes its good not to plan your days, caz most of the times, the plan goes in vain. but this was really a surprising day out. we decided to go for a movie at City Pulse and come back. but at the end of the day, we watched 2 movies and had a long drive to Gandhinagar and Mahudi. it was great. movies were ok, but what really matters is company...

free fish

Siamese Fighter fish aka Betta fish, originally uploaded by Kailash Nadh.

do u remember this fish?? how can u forget it. i talked abt it few days back. at that time, it was in a small glass bowl at my place. but today, it got some good company at wide angle. we decided to set this fighter fish at bodakdev garden, but than this morning i decided to transfer it to a big glass fish house at wide angle, caz i was afraid if it could survive in such cold rain water without food. i didnt set it free excetly, but somehow, at wideangle, it got some big house and some good companies as well...

raining

raining on their parade, originally uploaded by sapaho.

its all raining these days. RAIN is a strange thing, or say, people are really strange. people pray for rain when its not there. and they pray to stop it as soon as it hits the town. whats wrong with them?? hah !! anyways, i think rain is one of the most beautiful thing god could create, besides girls, ha ha ha !!

It was fucking flop show on saturday night. well, i shudnt use such aggrasive language, caz its nothing new about 'flop show'. its pretty usual among us. hah !! never mind !!

Fresh Start

Aerobic Machines, originally uploaded by sirwiseowl.

it was a wonderful morning. had a wonderful start at the morning at Health club. specially bcaz of aerobics. its a great thing. Its the only workout, besides jogging, that i really love. (yaa, the worst past is Himesh reshmiyaa). It gives a fresh kicking start in the morning. THese days, i m little busy with working out some design for WideAngle website. I dont know how its gonna look like, but lets give it a try.

And last night i was about to write about my buddy, Parin, who just came back from London yesterday. He was there for almost 2 yrs. and now he is here with one way ticket, and want to settle down here. and i think he has great opportunitites here, as Ahmedabad is one the fastest developing city in Booming India. The economy growth is fantastic. and i think it will not take much time to compare India with outside world. Atleast India will not belong to THIRD WORLD in near future. But i m happy as Parin is back. and it was a freat surprise for his parents and other relatives that he arrived a day before he announced. It was a happy and shkcing moment for auntie. great.....Lets see, what happens now !! He told me that he got some business ideas.....

We ate this !!

Subway Melt, originally uploaded by Morton Fox.

WOW, this is the best thing to eat on earth. I really love this subway burgers or sandwich. but this is really fresh and refreshing. I donno why some people dont like it. for me, its difficult to resist myself from the smell comes from the store. It was really lovely day yesterday. In the morning, the temp was little humid and hot, but by the afternoon, Ahmedabad tested the real rain. It was the best rain of the season till now. and everybody was out from their home to get drenched. But we had some other plans. we all went to watch Die hard 4.0, cooool movie, specially Bruce Willis. aaah, other people didnt like it really. but i think me and megha enjoyed it. after that, it was time to have some food at Rasranjan, which was a flop show bcaz my car was stucked in parking. aah, traffic on that road was terrible. so we decided to teste Subway, the best thing to eat on earth.

and than mansi, megha, gopi went to khushi's place and i really dont know what they did there. but it was really a nice day, especially bcaz of the rain. and we all had a day out after a long time. well, lets see how their plans go for next week !!

in dilhema....again !!

Siamese Fighter fish aka Betta fish, originally uploaded by Kailash Nadh.

Its called fighter fish, and its the most beautiful gift i ever received in my life of 22 years. i was really happy to receive it. but theres a little problem with me. I can not see these animals caged. So i think i will have to do something with this. but I m in dilemha.....i must release these fishes to freedom. But it will break the hearth of someone if i do so. So what shud i do??

after thinking for a while, i decided to do a favor to these fishes. bcaz i can make her understand and make her happy the other way, and i m sure she will understand. but i can not do injustic with these animals. its against the law of nature.

finally free tonight

rock band, originally uploaded by skier_abc.

Paper bags and plastic hearts
All are belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night
Let's get drunk and ride around
And make peace with an empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
But we'll cry
We won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just cause we're young
And we'll feel so alive


All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight










Artist: Boys Like Girls
Album: Boys Like Girls
Year: 2006
Title: The Great Escape

my 1st 22nd Birthday

Birthday-cake in Hamburg, originally uploaded by robokow.

happy birthday to u,
happy birthday to u,
happy birthday to dear rAVi and biREn,
happy birthday to u....
and yaa, wishing a happy birthday to Apple iPhone as well, my second love....

yaa, its my 22nd BD, this world has tolerated and bared me for 22 years. thanks a lot for that. and yaa, thanks to all my well wishers too. but the best gift to my BD could be an iPhone, which will be released today, in few hours. aaah, what a beauty !! it was good to talk with all old friends from australia. and i dont know what i have planned for tonight, but i m sure its gonna be some special one.

and i wodner today, what i have achieved in last 22 years !!?? how many of them i have wasted?? (( who wanted to save them anyway, ha ha ha)) !!

so just chiilex and stay cooooooooooooool ((guru mantra of a happy life))

Life is not like maths, its not about having right answers all the time, Life is like painting, just make it full of colours, make silly mistakes and enjoy it !!

WHOs HE??

Himesh, originally uploaded by abrarnadir.

can u identify this guy?? ('guy' doesnt mean 'indian cow', ok !!). well, this is the first picture of search result when i typed "himesh" on flickr. now u will be amzed why would be i searching HIMESH here? i m not his huge fan. infact, i hate it a lot. but life is cruel, very cruel. I have to listen to all of his tracks, early mornig, twice a week !! the speciality of himesh reshmiya's songs is that they all have same kinda music, very same kinda music, same beats and same rythm. This special characteristics of these songs makes AEROBICS very RYTHMETIC. ha ha ha !! But the bad side is that we have to suffer a lot. i mean............u can imagine how it feels to listen to himesh in early mornig at 6.30 !! ....................................SHIT !!

but the good news is that megha is in Abad !! lets make out some plans and have fun !!

Sand

Arjun with Sand, originally uploaded by shane5ab.

people say i m rackless and lack sense of respect, as most of the time i disagree with them, or fight against their believes, which are, most of the times, misbelieves for me. sometimes they want me to be like them, one of them. But how can i be what other people want me to be?? " I WOULD RATHER BE HATED FOR WHAT I AM, THAN BE LOVED FOR WHAT I M NOT". They want me to hold tightly, want me to be on their side. but they fail to realise that i m not opposing them. I Just think differently. but when they try to hold me tightly, what happens is that i just slip away from their hand, just like sand. I am always Yours, believe in me, just set me free and i will be back to you. When u start holding me tight, i will slip away from your hand.

Grilled

Grilled Veggie Panini, originally uploaded by Sashertootie.

its sunday and funday....so how can u use the day?? well, after waking up at 11 am, i came to office at 12.30. and just checked my mails and surf around. and watched "Chain kulli ki main kulli".....which express the idea of "the magic is in you". so i decided to check the magin of cheaf in me, and i decided to make some Chilli Paneer Grilled Sandwich. and it was not that bad at all. Next time i will have to add some more chilli, thats it !! Mansi, Gopi and kHushbU are planning for an evening. and its raining outside, and the atmosphere is just magical.

Car broke down... trying to fix it

Our car broke down... trying to fix it, originally uploaded by kesoboll.

damn, Santo is broke down. damn, damn, damn !! i hate it !! I hate this thing. i wasted half of this day fixing it. it was such a waste.

♥♥♥HaPpY bIrThDaY♥♥♥

♥HaPpY bIrThDaY ◦●š7я ЄĮ 3ÿőҹה●◦♥, originally uploaded by 『ä7łáңǿм-ώåт7ǎđаңǾм』♥◦°з.

wishing WIDE ANGLE a very very happy 5th birthday. it was a wonderful journey with WIDE ANGLE. and today was a very very special day for me as well, as we planned out something good and which yield some good results as well. 5Rs popcorn and cock on 5th anniversary was not that bad idea. and I add some new contacts of Radio Mirchi Rj Ankit (Dr Love) and Rj Hiren (jyanti jokham) as they were here all day to distribute all gift vouchers, worth around 1 lcks. At the end of the day, it was a wonderful, but very tiring day. so my lags are aching like nothing else, and i m going to sleep.

I want to sleep

Pooped out from a busy weekend, originally uploaded by artsycooper.

its been such a long time i wrote something on this blog. i dont know why i was so busy, and with what i was busy. but somehow i just cudnt get sometime for myself. anyways, life is going cool these days. being busy is good sometimes. and i m polishing my skills for future. WIDE ANGLE is celebrating its 5th anniversary on 21st June, so its gonna be a busy day too !!

Hungry

Two Hungry Mouths - June 9th, originally uploaded by CaptPiper.

just like these newborns, i m feeeling too hungry right now. i had nothing but one serve of Maggy, and a glass of juice. and it was not an easy day at all. i was in 42 degree temp from 3pm to 6.30 pm. shit....u can not call it a good Weekend !!

Leave out all the rest

I dreamed I was missing
You were so scared
But no one would listen
Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming
I woke with this fear
What am I leaving
When I'm done here

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

When my time comes
Forget the wrong that I've done
Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed

And don't resent me
And when you're feeling empty
Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest
Leave out all the rest


Don't be afraid
I've taking my beating
I've shared what I've been

I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you

So if you're asking me
I want you to know

Forgetting
All the hurt inside You've learned to hide so well

Pretending Someone else
can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

Tired and Lonely

tired, originally uploaded by miss_kcc.

aaah, too tired...and feeling so alone...

well, but the good thing about Today is that i bought a book, a coockery book, for DIps and Chips, and i m gonna make some cool dips now. everything else is normal. mansi is in kashmir, having fun !! gopi and khushi are little busy. and megha is too far. Jimesh.....aah, he came to my place 2 days back, but i had to push him out caz i wanted to talk to someone. and last night we were having party at Bandan Restaurant, S G Highway. it was a surprise birthday party for Palak.

its saturday night now, so lets see what will be the plan for tonight !!

i wish i cud have that

hot sun & cool beer, originally uploaded by japanese forms.

oh man, i wish i cud have this Luxury. it was really hot day, almost 44 c. and i was..........fucked up with some work. i still smell so bad with that sweating. but i cudnt help it. anywyas, i have been trying to lose some more weight, but for last 2 weeks, my all efforts go in vain. but still, i m losing weight.
pretty busy with finding out new ways of coocking, i m planning to do something different in food industry in ahmedabad. let me have some experience first, than it will be in my hand what i can/wanna do.

my first Crepe

Dessert Republic - Dessert, originally uploaded by VirtualErn.

today was one of the most remarkable day of life. i prepared my first crepe after a long time search of recipe. and it was awesome. and i m gonna make some more 2moro and gonna put on taste with different flavours. it will be rocking. !! now its time to find out some more things to start a good business. but b4 that, i must select some more items to accompany this crepe.

creativity

Late night ice cream seller

Late night ice cream seller, originally uploaded by hddod.

i have been looking for this pic for a long long time. i saw this kinda ice cream parlour in Melbourne.

Brownie Ice Cream

Brownie. Ice Cream. Sauce., originally uploaded by Mr November.

oh man, i m really missing this thing, though i had it last sunday with khushi and mansi. but i love it, and i want it more and more ....and more !!

getting bored

oh man, i hate this feelings. today, i had very little to do. and i m really getting bored. so what i m doing on net is lookin for some dips reciepes and grilled sandwiches. SHIT !! isnt it !!?? last evening i was trying to prepare 'waffle cone' for ichipan style ice cream. but it was real waste of that ingediants. hah !! i was trying to make it as thin as dosa, but i ened up with 'bajri no rotlo'. well, so i decided to start this excercise all over again. and i think its gonna be little (very) difficult.

Flickr

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WnR66L7o8R0

first rain

2 days back, it was a different day. somewhere where in the middle of sizzling summer, sky was pouring rain. it was like, like ahmedabad founf "marusthal" in the middle of desert. but damn, it was some how an obstacle for some work at wide angle. but we cudnt help it. anyways, i donno whats wrong with my blogpage. i can see very clear on my PC, but megha, regular visitor, commented that its messed up with ffffff (html code for colour "white") fonts and fffffff bg. but i found it pretty clear on my screen. and here is the screen shot of the same.

what you say megha, isnt it pretty cool??? i dont know whats wrong with either my or your pc?

changing colours

these days i m trying to get some time to decorate my blogpages. and i think its going good. pretty cooooool. Chini Kum was not that bad movie, still mansi found it pretty boring. i liked Big B's comedy and that Sexy's acting too. but these days i m busy with so many things around. and i dont know when its gonna end. i hope it end soon, so we can start something big, again. but till than, i will be searching some new cool blogpage designs.

its been a long time i wrote something. people say i m changed, but never ever commented wheather its positive or negative change. i donnno if i m changed. but strongly believe that change is law of nature and change is unchangable. these days life is going gr8. working all day and spending coool nights. wow, its like real life. i m just too busy with bunglow, parking plot, and other management work at wideangle. its really busy life and i love it. i was getting bored with lazy days few months back, but now life is in pace. we are planning for some new business these days. lets see where we can go ahead.

i feel little stuck today. gettin bored of nothing. good news is that i lost 4 kg in a month, and achieve my target. mansi will be here on 12th night and megha left yesterday. anyways, so many things going around. no need to mention any other.

i was little busy with dreaming all day. hah !! i love dreaming....

......and dreaming is not something you see when u go to sleep, but dream is the thing that doesnt let u sleep !! - Great Abdul Kalam

well, seems like everything is set and she will be here on this saturday night. pretty coool !! i was waiting for this for a long time, but somehow she was busy with making all bullshit excuses !! anyways, NOW is the time, and she will be with me soon. and megha's leaving 2moro evening...so sad yaar, i wish she could stay here for one more week. "i m leaving on a jet plane, and i dont know when i'll be back again, oh baby, i hate to go !!" suits on megha !! hah !! anyways, i gotta go now to attend Jimesh's sis marraige. but today was the day for Mr Bhaskar Narrula, the architech. hah !! he must be pieced off by all my brothers and uncles' wired mind and ideas abt their home plans. but i think i got the clear picture today. and will be finalised soon !!

its been a long time since i wrote my last blog. i keep my self busy with something and soemething. but sometimes i ask my friends to have a evening out, but seems like all of them are pretty busy. Jimesh came home last night, and we had some talk. Gopi and Megha left for gopi''s engagement on sunday. hah !! and theres one more surprise for next week, and i m so happy abt it. but i can not unveil it now, its gonna be a big surprise dude !!. btw, birenbhai finally chose his life partner, named "drupal". and 2moro morning, she will be at our home. now its her place too, but not for now. anyways, life is rocking these days, leaening so many things. and shit things always happen in life, so just dont worry abt it !!

i dont know from where to start......i was waiting for final day of exam of my friends. and today was that day, but it was not that exciting day at all. but it was the day when i learned how to PRETEND to be happy. hah !! i totally agree with Pink, GOD is a DJ and life is a dance floor. and he makes up dance on his own rythm.

megha's leaving for Pune next week. i think its too early, too early for me, hah !! and at this time i m listening to "leaving on a jet plane", that helps me to picturise something. but i really "hate to say good bye". even though she was a Silent Piece of Art by Mr. God, she was a gr8 friend to be with. anyways, its all her life, and she has made her decision what she wants to do.

and there are some comments i have marked in my private diary, that only one person can read.

today, i find my self little alone. i was wondering to whom i shud talk?? but i cudnt find anybody around, so i just kept myself busy with something and something. but at 9.30 pm, on saturday, again i have nothing to do and i m all alone in this office. so i just started writing down. and i really can not write what i want to write.

and it really doesnt make any difference what i think, what i like, what i love, what i hate, who makes me feel good, who makes feel high, who makes me smile, whom i m love.................because everybody got their god damn life and their fucking problems, and no one has time to read this blogs. all i m suppose to do to pretend to be happy......

i was at gandhinagar, at collector's office, and i had to wait for 2.3 hrs for nothing. i hate to visit any govt office. it gives me very bad bad feelings and i feel really fish out of water, very unsecure. but something u have to do. this was one of them. lets hope that we get for what we were waiting there. it will be dream project than.

i m losing some weight these days. it was 87.5 kg today, and it was 90.3 kg on 11th april. i guess i m going good. i dont want to do any crash course. i talked to mansi, srujal kumar and sejal dd today. she was really confused on whose behalf she has to attend marraige. its too early to worry abt all these things sejalben. anyways, mansi got her all paper ready and will submit 2moro. everything was going as usual, nothing much different. but i dont know why i m feeling little down, so i gotta go now. so catch u later. and yaa, i still didnt get whats Agyat vaas, i love to be alone, but thats enogh for maximum one day. i donno how mansi can manage it for 2-3 years. !!!

its 11.41 pm and i shud be home at this time, but somehow, today i dont wannna leave this chair and wanna keep on writing. from this morning, i had some bad bad intusions in mind. i was not feeling good. may because whats going around me. i m a very practicle person and i can face such situation easily. but somtimes, its difficult to see your dreams washed away like this. you can't see your love once fighting. its difficult. and in such matter, its difficult to judge right and wrong. its difficult to analys both sides of coin. but its all god's wish, and i can see whats on his mind. and i believe that his decision will make everybody happy, atleast those who deserves happiness and peace.

and than i gotta call up that girl. i dont know from when i started worring about her, and why. but she is the first Tansion Tablet in my life. oh god, i never ever had any tension in my life. but sometimes its good to have some tension, just a little bit. and thank god, i can talk to her in straight way, no more beating around the bush, straight to the point. i am Early waiting for her to see at ahmedbad airport on Internation arrival section, i will be there to pick her up. But today, i was feeling little down, so just wanted to had little talk with her. but we started discussion on a different topic, that might made her little angry on me. but i feel sorry for that, i didnt mean that. I just wanted to say whats on my mind, because i was worried abt her.

sometimes you just look at the reasons that god creats to change your life. i dont know why i decided to go australia instead of United Kingdom.?? I changed my mind to fly to australia only 2-3 days before i was about to apply for UK. why parin decided to go to UK insted of australia.?? and than why my mom suggested to stay with her?? why we sticked togahter even when i used to hate her?? and why she used to call me her first and no 1 bf ??? why she straighten her hair, one of the most imp characteristic of my dream girl?? why she is the only child of her parents, another characteristic from my wishlist. and there is a hugh list i can write down on this topic. but the main point is god is great. and i used to believe, and i strongly believe, and i will believe that god always makes the right decision, he is not like me or mansi or PM or srujal or khushbu, ha ha ha !!! ! just kidding. never mind.....may be all listed reasons are not enough to justify what i m saying..but who cares, I m not here to ask your justification and dont need your certificate. GOD has decided something for me, you and for everybody, and i wanna stick to his decision, his sweet decision, his harsh decisions, his bitter bitter decision, and sometimes his decision to make me wait for his decision !!!

and come on yaar, leave any comments atleast !!

life is full of shit these days, and i find myself among so many problems that i can hardly solve. but thats life. it will be insipid if u dont have to face problems. but problems like these are difficult to face. anyways, its all fate and dastiny. Everything happens for a reason, everything has a season, its all come and go.

mansi told me that whenever we face any problem, we wish we could solve it and wish everything will be fine after that. but it doesnt happen like that and another problems will be waiting for you to solve the preceding problem. so just face problems with whatever u have.

and i guess she is right. its like waves of sea, unlimited, unstopable and countless.

apart from these, everybody is damn busy with exams. I pass my day with some work and co-workers. but i get bored after 8.

gym of going excellent. it was 88.750 today, and i began with 90.3 on last wednesday. so pretty coool for me. i m targeting to lose 15 kg by 15th august, in 4 moths of period. and i m ready to do that.

90.3 !! no no no, its not Radio Mirchi, its an amount in KG. yaa, as on 11th April, 2007, i was weighted as 90.3 kg. and now i have decided to pull it down to 75 in 5 months. so 3 kg a months to lose. for that i have joined Parsana Health Club. its difficult to wake up at 6 in the morning. but i gotta do that. so this is something new in life. i had nothing to do today, so i went to Crossword just to pass time. where i came across Abdul Kalaam's autobiography, Wings Of Fire. its was simply superb. i vote him for next president of india. than i went to call up mansi. its was feeling good to talk with her. PM was not there, he was on job. god damn, i wanted to talk to him but he was not there. anyways, i will call him later. actually i went to mansi's home last night. it was a strange experience, i was fucking confused and was feeling little "fish out of water" !! but i gotta used to all these. damn, its too early for me, dont u think so??

lots of things going around these days. and the hottest thing is SUN OF SUMMER. its getting crazy now. i can not survive without ac. its fucking 40 C now. and more over, Kaushikbhai broke his leg ystrday. so he is getting rest for a week. mansi called me yesterday and we had a long drive....i mean i was driving while talking to her, so its kinda a long drive...hi hi hi !! its always fun to make her go crazy and angry. i bet if she was in india, she would have killed me.!! hah ! megha, khushi and gopi are busy with their final final final exams. and jimesh too. everybody will be busy with job right after their exams. so i m getting my srlf busy with so many things. theres not much to do, but i have to find out something to do. at this moment, we are plannign to buy that Sughad land, and lets pray god that we get it soon. its a PERFECT location and we can develope that area at its best. but before all these, we need to buy it from gov. PM got a chance for a new job, next to IGA. its a gr8 news. it will help him to get work experience hours as well. pretty good. thats it for now, i dont wanna streach it long. so c u soon !!

singapore trip was awesome, more than awesome if we remove those 3 days on CRUISE. hah !! Night Safari made me fall in love with mother nature. And Songs of the Sea, musical fountain show was extra ordinary, more than that. Patronus tower and KL tower at Malaysia tower was great. overall, this was an awesome trip with all family. and how can i forget to tell u about the Big Scene at Singapore airport. i had almost missed the plane to India while i was busy talking with mansi. oh god, i was literally beaten by all bros and bhabhis.

and now, back to india, i m busy with all chores around me. so many things going around in family. its like enjoying all colours of life when u live with a huge joint family. i will talk on this later, as its always fun !!

aah, pretty busy with shopping these days. but cudnt find much. may be i m still used to australian teste. but today, i tried some t's and had to buy some for these holidays....but yesterday was a GREAT SCENE with NAYANBHAI! ! well, i was just trying to have some fun with his nack, but suddenly he got unconcious and fall down on floor. oh man, we were scared. i didnt know what to do. but thank god, kaushikbhai was there and he helped. otherwise.....

u see, DEATH is always around us, u can not escape from it. happens, shit things happens in life. but now we got visa for singapore, malasiya and thialand, so its all fun time now, we are packing bags for saturday night flight...bu before that, India is playing to Srilanka, and it will be Do or Die match. so must be very interesting. God knows whats gonna happen. but who cares, afterall its a sport, a match and oonly one team can win (i hope it will be india). best luck to men in blue......

ronak got his new car, Skoda Octavia Rider. 3rd Skoda and 15th car in family. wow, we dont have space to park any more car. but these days, i m bit busy with Essem House construction. today, i was there for whole day.

india lose against Bangadesh and now India is playing to Barmunda. and i dont give a damn to anything.

last night i was with megha and gopi, and khushi was there too....and out of 2-3 plans, we decided to go to Gulam Ali Concert. me and megha enjoyed, but cant say the same abt other 2. after that, we had asharfi, and i love it, love to have it after a long time....afterall, it was a good weekend..

well, lots of things going around. its khushi's BD so we are having dance party at this time.
and i called mansi yesterday and she sounds very coool and stable these days. from last 3-4 calls, i m noticing a drametic, but good change in her behaviour. thats great. well, these weekend, me, gopi and megha gonna have some plan. so lets see what happens. till than, let me plan out our new home.....

ysterday we started to make marks for new bunglows on S G highway. it was fucking hot day in that KHETAR. but we had to do it. well, so many other things are going around, but i dont have much to write them down. so i will decribe them letter.

and i still can not view my own blogs on this f***ing PC. sometimes i really think that these are my suicide notes, as i m gonna destroy this PC and kill my self with fustration !!!

today i got my first salary, RS. 12,000 !! hhmmmm, not bad, after all , i have nothing to save on that. its total disposable income, just like pocket money. feeling good. but as i decided, i would like to give away 10% of income to any charity or something.

mansi got her results, and its great result. and as megha said....MPA must be easy course !! i dont know, accounting was never my cup of tea.......so i prefer coffee instead, so i decided to go for markting. and i think it was a perfect decision. and what abt deciding to study in australia?? well, now it is prooved to be the most twisted decision of life, and i guess its a good twist. well, some people may not agree with that, but i know its a right decision....

PM left India yesterday and i dont know when he will be back, but best lust for his life......

today i got my first salary, RS. 12,000 !! hhmmmm, not bad, after all , i have nothing to save on that. its total disposable income, just like pocket money. feeling good. but as i decided, i would like to give away 10% of income to any charity or something.

mansi got her results, and its great result. and as megha said....MPA must be easy course !! i dont know, accounting was never my cup of tea.......so i prefer coffee instead, so i decided to go for markting. and i think it was a perfect decision. and what abt deciding to study in australia?? well, now it is prooved to be the most twisted decision of life, and i guess its a good twist. well, some people may not agree with that, but i know its a right decision....

PM left India yesterday and i dont know when he will be back, but best lust for his life......

today i got my first salary, RS. 12,000 !! hhmmmm, not bad, after all , i have nothing to save on that. its total disposable income, just like pocket money. feeling good. but as i decided, i would like to give away 10% of income to any charity or something.

mansi got her results, and its great result. and as megha said....MPA must be easy course !! i dont know, accounting was never my cup of tea.......so i prefer coffee instead, so i decided to go for markting. and i think it was a perfect decision. and what abt deciding to study in australia?? well, now it is prooved to be the most twisted decision of life, and i guess its a good twist. well, some people may not agree with that, but i know its a right decision....

PM left India yesterday and i dont know when he will be back, but best lust for his life......

many many happy returns of the day....mansi....wishing you a very happy birthday....
though i was far away, somehow i tried to make her day by one way or other ( lets say one sms or lots of sms). and i think this night was little surprising for her, what say mansi??
well, the holi day began with Jimesh's sister's engagement ceremony, so i was busy till 1. but i was dead after that, bcaz....bcaz.....bcaz...................bcaz i dont know. it wa funny situation, or say dangerous one. i was talking to all my brothers, they all 7 in the same office and suddenly mansi got online and we were chatting there. and that made me centre of topic for all my bros. and unfortunatly, my dad was there too.....oh shit !!!
but suddenly we decided to go for a long drive and we end up with a tour to Sadra, gandhinagar. it was a fun trip with all brothers and friends. sometimes i really feel great to be in India. life was never better like this. australia had all the fun and freedom, but .................hhhhhhhmmmmmmm not like india yaar !! its all fun with family, brothers, sisters, bhabhis and Baas and friends......aaah !! where can i find that in australia..??? INDIA IS GREAT !!

it was almost more than one year i visited any temple, so i had a small meeting with Hanuman dada on last saturday. i had some questions and some doubts that i asked him to solve soon. and i really didnt know that he will do that the very next morning. everything happned so fast and in so perfact manner that i was SHOCKED by the results of that small prayer. last night i talked with mansi. and it really made me feel so good. she is one of the best friends i ever had in life. yaa, just like me, you and other people on earth, she is not perfact. and i dont like perfect people anyway. so i like imperfact people like mansi, hah !! well, we talked a lot, she was at IGA at 6 am, working hard !! and i talked to her whatever happned in last 3 days. and she was laughing at me, specially on the topic where my all brothers took me for remand and on the visit of her parents.

it feels like everything is going in so perfact manner, everything is going in the way they should.

Today i went to SPIPA for adevent from KS and had a long meeting with all lod buddies. But now, i m planning to visit singapore and malasiya with my bros. so may be i will fly away on 24th March.

life is nothing else but a roller coaster.
my all brothers had decided something and they achieved their goal, and i think it was a good end of the story, and another start of another story.
i always afraid to make decisions, because i m afraid to make wrong decision. but sometimes i just forget to understand that i m human being and i have right to make wrong decisions, right to make mistake. and from my point of view, this will be the biggest decision of my life, and as far as i can see, its gonna be all right. i got some signs.....

just came back from Mumbai. it was one of the most memorable trip of life. maare be vakhat "shree ganesh" karva padya hataa. we left fot mumbai on 21st night by road. and unfortunaty we had to come back from Bharuch as the road was blocked due to accident. and we had to come back to ahmedabad at morning. but it was very important to visit that IAAPA expo, so we decided to go by train on 23rd night. the train musafari was fucking horrible. it was me, kaushikbhai and prashantbhai...and we had no confirmation on train. and it was like hell. travelling without confirmation was suck a headache. i cudnt sleep bcaz of half journy to bombay. and we 3 brothers had to pass night on single berth. it was fucking hell. well, and travelling in mumbai local trains......is another diffiucult job. after travelling in Connex in Melbounre, travelling in local train....is like $@$@$. i dont know, i odnt have any example to explain this thing. i wish i cud make John and Robert travelling on local trains. it would be a gr8 fun. but expo was good, and we had good fun as well. and at night, we decided to have some drink....what abt Hewards 5000. it was pretty good beer. i was almost drunk. i asked my brother if i cud call mansi, but they said it is too late in australia. so i called megha and talked to her. and it was a pleasent end of a wondeful journey. PM, i went to mumbai to visit amusemnt park and industry expo for our new project....well c u soon !! !

damn, i can not see my own blogs online. what kinda internet is this....i go to my blog page, and an error pops up "this page can not be displayed"....damn it !!

are yaar PM, hamna thi kai navaa juni nathi kari. aaje j mansi ne phone karyo, to evu laage che ke ene australia maa thoda jalsa karva che. mansi wants to enjoy her life in australia for next 6-7 months. thats cooool. and u'll be gone in few days. megha will be in Pune, and khushbu and gopi will be busy with job. and what i will be doing? i keep myself busy at day time, but at night, i need a friend to talk with. well, no need to worry, let everyone enjoy their life the way they want. i m trying to log in to MY HUTCH. but it takes a lot of time. so meantime, i would like to make this blog. anyways, may be tonight i will leave for Bombay for next 2 days. so hope to c u later. u come at my home soon !!

PM, theres nothing much to read today, because theres nothing much to write. because in life, its better to have some private experiences, doesnt matter they r good or bad. i tried to share everything i had, but i can not narrate my condition any more...

last night was one of the most terrible night i had. it was a valentines day and, as usual, it was just another day for me, nothing more than that. may be it was a bit different than all other valentines day. but still....nothing much changed. Khushbu and gopi were totally free after finishing exams, so we decided to meet at CCC express. but somehow megha could not manage to appear there. but me, khushbu and gopi had a lot of chat about last one year. just like the mix experience of last one year in australia, last night was a mix night of confessions. i dont know where this story will end, but i dont want to think about this anymore and concentrate on business.

and i m feeling so alone here. no one to talk with. everyone is busy. or have their own problems. i started thinking abt my origin. but cudnt find it. so i started hating god, again. !! he makes me feel so alone and dependant. i hate him. all shit , aaaalllllllllllllllllll shit !

feels like fucking caged. i was a bird, flying high in open sky. but after being in india, it feels like i m caged. i m bored. nothing to do around. all same shit problems. fucking shit !! i hate this feeling.

its been a week i wrote my last blog. and life is completly changed in last week. i moved 10000 miles away, far away from Melbourne, in india. India is the place where i belong. but after spending few months in melbourne, i dont feel like that anymore. i wish i cud fly back, but i think i can not. the decision is mine, and i can make my choice. but it will take a lot of tears. and i can not bare that. so i m happy to be here, in india. and it will be better to be here. now i m at the stage where i need to make another decision. and this will be the toughest decision i will have to take. god help me. i dont know what to do in this situation, and by thinking this, i m just hammering my mind. feels like my mind will blow off soon. may be i need a doze of beer and have dreamles night. may be i need to i need a barrle of coffee to bare this headache. all friends in india are busy with exams. so i m complatly alone. and this makes these moments more painful. may be i need some help, i need to rest in arms, but i can not find that. fucking shit. what i m writing about. today was one of the greatest day of life as it was Bhoomi Poojan for new bunglows. this was the moments we all have been waiting for years. and its begain now. i m waiting for the Vaastu Puajan day. its gonna be another celebration for ahmedabad. but for this moment, i dont know why my head is spinning.

Dandenong ranges and Philip Iseland, it was for yesterday. today was the time for Safari at weribee open range zoo and Rialto tower. both were wonderful days, some of the best day in melbourne and in life as well. after its all company that matters. PM and mansi are always there, but ystrday sauring, the 8th wonder also joined us. it was really great. D Ranges is one of the most beautiful place i ever visited. Melbounre was looking coooooooooool from there. and it was like 'road to heaven', wonderful scenery to the top of the mountain. Philip island was 72 Km away from D ranges. but it took us some 133 km, and dont ask me why, we are still surprised. Philip Island is not a unique place, but it was a nice trip as well. Today, journey was supposed to start at 8.30, but i was in bed at that time. well, but we reached at destination on time, no problem. it was a very close counter with lion, hippo, rhino and Cheetah. i like cheeta. he was cooool, actually they were 2, so i refused to go nearer to them. but it was awesome experience. coooool. then, on return, we decided to visit rialto observation dock. it was the view of melbourne city, from 60th floor, almost 350 mtr. fucking awesome view. i will hardly forget that in this life. this was once in a life time opportunity. now i dont regreat to go back to india. i had enough of this. now i want to settle down, settle down in india, with family and friends. life is going smoothly, and with some twists, as usual, no need to worry abt it, just enjoy.....

life is fucking twisted. things happen that u never expected. life is going through a twist at this time. well, we all went to Lillydale lake, such a nice place to be. it was fucking traffic that spoiled some mood, but it was a nice trip. and today, i finished my last shift at IGA, and we all went to Crown, the last visit, and we really had gr8 fun there. i lose $15, but thats fine. we enjoyed Roullet, Corona and dance, and that fire show for sure.

something is wrong with John and Rob that last night was a nightmare for both brothers. as this morning, mansi found that IGA was stolen by a guy last nihgt. she was the first one at the spot, and i was the second one who came to know abt this. than ROb and John and cops appeared at IGA. bad day, bad day. mansi just finished her second assignment. feeling some relaxed, but very tired. she will have good sleep tonight. me and PM are planning for some trip next week as that would be the last week in melbourne.

DEJAVU, i thought it would be a nice movie.............well, i thought so !! no so bad, but i cudnt understand how those people could change past? well, i dont know, and i dont want to explain. but its always fun to watch movie with PM and mansi. i spend half time commenting on movie with PM, and the other half i explain it to mansi. but it was a boring day, and mansi was at uni for assignments, shit assignments. so me and PM decided to go for a movie. besides this, i m highly inspired by PM and writing some songs. i will blog them soon. wait for them.

lunch at rajbhog

it was a day at rajbhog, had a full lunch, with Pani puri, bhel, samosa chat, poori - ras, rice, undhiyu, chanaa, daal, kadhi and a lot more. woooooooh !! i m still feeling full. we cudnt move from that dinning table. it was a graduation party from me. well, but the bad part of the day is that mr bean is back in australia, i dont want to write his name here, so i call him mr bean. ok, no more talking abt him. !! well, nothing much happened today, talked to birenbhai, and not much.

it was just another day, nothing special happened. mansi and montu submitted their assignment, and it was happy ending of the story...

last night was great, as i wrote in last blog that me and PM had CORONA, Maxican beer, the best beer in world. hah !! i m not drunk right now. listening to Fall Out Boys, coool band. well, we just came back home from St Kilda Beach. what we were doing there?? well well well, we were celebreating mansi's BD. but its in march, so what we were celebrating on 18th Jan. well, i m flying back to india in Feb, so me and PM wont be here on 4th March, so we decided to celebrate it here, on 18th Jan. it was cooooool, she wasn't expecting this party. so it was really fun.

aaj no daahdo j kharaab rayho. havaar naa pohrma tram ma mama e pakdyo. mansi ticket aapvanu bhooli gai, ane nasib to juo.........savaar ni paheli tram maa, 5.30 vaage, pelaa mamao navraa padi gayaa. i was caught by those officers, travelling without ticket. $150 fine. but that was not enough that i had to work with Tanyaa today. i had to wake up early bcaz mansi broke her leg last night when we went to watch "guru". it was not that bad movie. but little bit "unrealistic". well, yesterday was very very hot day. not only for me, for maria sharpova too. as she was facing really hot time at Australia Open yesterday, with 40 degree. and moreover, there was blackout for 4-5 hours bcaz of bush fire. but today was worse than yesterday. i had to open shop. the good news was that freezers were still out of order, so there wasnt any frozen delivery today. so i went to brighton beach with David and PM. Actually David had some real problem so he was seeking some tips and suggestions from us. but in this case of Love, me and PM are hopeless. hah !! but shit things happen in life. mansi is feeling so seek today that she is lying in bed and watching rubbish tv shows online, and me and PM are enjoying Corona, beer from Maxico, 4.6% alc. and i think i m drunk.

happy uttarayan in melbourne

its 15th Jan, and we are missing those Kites in the sky. there was no happy uttarayan in melbourne. untill me, PM and mansi found the way out and bought some coool kites from Geelong. it was all fun. we all were there, at St Kilda Beach, having fun of uttarayan. may be we were only 3 indians, celebrating uttarayan in melbourne. but than, i had to go to IGA. it was a fucking boring day for me. the only good thing abt at job was that there were so many chicks from landmark and surrounding areas. it was all fun. hah !! well, thats good enough for today. and now i must not mansion Megha's name here, otherwise mansi will kill me. hah !!

life is on track again as i got new broadband connection at new place. its coooool and superfast at 1500 kbps. it feels like i m breathing freash air, just came out of dungeon of dial up. but during last few days, life was taking a very different, funny, strange and unexplanable shape. everyday was like, with new problem and new surprises, good and bad surprises. and i love to enjoy both of them. one of them is a meeting with Niraj and Srujal....i mean....srujalkumar, as he got married on 28th dec. we always call him 'Lucky Horse". and he is such a lucky guy. well, Niraj is in melbourne to celebrate his 31st. we were planning to meet for a long time, but unsual schedules were just didnt let that happen. and during this time, i was drunk last night, and had a wonderful chat with megha. this time, it was on telephone, not online. we talked for 30 mins abt all problems and surprises of my life. and may be she gave me best solutions for those problems, and laughed with me on those surprises. well, the biggest surprise is yet to come. but time will unveil it, dont let me give you hint. PM is exploring his artistic side and writing rap songs to compete Eminem, and he is going good. may be i will also start writing some songs and poems as my two close friends are doing good at this. but these days, me mansii and Pm are enjoying some last days in melbourne. i dont know when i will be back again, but i m sure i will come back again. there are so many things to write on, but lets dont make it so complecated at this time. so i will keep writing now onwards. and of course, it is a good surprise megha.

i just realised how u feel when u crash on earth when u r flying on a dream ride. its heart breaking. you cant explian the pain in words. you can't cry, tears doesnt come out easily. u can't show yr pain, but cant hide in yr eyes. when a close friend hurts you so badly, u can't ignore it, u have to accept the pain. may be tomorrow i will be feeling better, but i will never ever forget these moments. this is the worst feeling i had in life. worst. i had no more bitter expereince than this. i was looking for a surprise from this routine life, but what i get is a SHOCK !!

its saturday night, and we just came back from Melbourne central. this time it was not so grooving as it was last night. and there were so many changes in the plans. i had some headach that spoiled all mood. talked to megha again tonight, that made me feel so good again. well, nothing else to write abt. life was as usual, except bruce asked me abt my chinese girlfriend. and i was confuced who is she?? according to him, jenny was my girlfriend, but its not like that. she is my good friend, i dont care who thinks what. hah !! well, shit things happen in life, u just need to let it go....let it go !

congratulations and celebrations......yeppy, we got a new home, close to tooranga station, very close to city. hah ! its a realife, great reliefe. now, no more watiing for those buses and trams. its all sucking. but this bring so many other problems as well. there are so many things we bought in common, but now its time to devide all those. god knows what will happen. but i dont care abt it, its time to celebrate at new home. we gonna sign bond tomorrom and will move soon !!

last night i had a great talk with megha, yaa, some talk and lots of chat. its always good to talk to her. i fall in love again with her. hah !! once again !! she is just like chocolate, irresistible for me, but not good for my health. its a painful temptation, and i gotta hold my self on that. today, she wrote me a poetry, a piece of poetry that somehow talk abt me, and may be more abt her...




“Something Beautiful"
You can't manufacture a miracle
The silence was pitiful that day.
A love is getting too cynical
Passion's just physical these days
You analyze everyone you meet
But get no sign, love ain't kind every night
you admit defeatand
cry yourself blind
May you find that love that won't leave you
May you find it by the end of the day
You won't be lost, hurt, tired and lonely
Something beautiful will come your way
The DJ said on the radio
Life should be stereo, each day
In the past you cast the unsuitable
Instead of some kind of beautiful,
you just couldn't wait
All your friends think you're satisfied
But they can't see your soul no, no, no
Forgot the time feeling petrified,
when they lived alone



how can someone think something like this.?? i will never figure it out. but i like the line where she talks abt 'analysing people i meet everyday'. this is the most common problem with everyone. its made my life worse, but now, i m overcoming with that problem slowly. i want to talk a lot with megha, but i cant. its never difficult to open those secrets with her, never hard to cry out my heart. why shudnt i propose her?? well, i, and we both, believe that some relationships are so beautiful just bcaz they dont have given any name. so let this relationship as virgin as it is. we both dont want to temper with it. ravi, wait for a while, have some pateint, amd you will find someone like megha with 'patel' surname. well, thats very important, u cant just help with it...hah !!

life sucks when you have to find a new house, in an alien country, with double figure in account, with no reference, with lable of Overseas student from Asia, without a car, using public transportation, in 35 degree, with smokey atmosphere caused by bush fire, and with somany so many other problems......

but its PM who helped a lot today. but still, hot and dry day makes me sick and tired. but somehow, i finished my job with wan and bonnie. Bruce also joined later, but i dont like that guy so i wont talk abt him. PM hates him. hah !! ewll, cherry showed up today. i asked her 'wheres jenny'? and she replied, " i havents seen her for a long time, what have u done to my friend??" and i was like........"me?? what cud i do??" " but i will tell u if i will do something, hah". and she said "she feels so alone and sad, and its a secret." so i sent jenny a msgs, but she didnt replied. may be she wants be in that situation. who can make her feel good if she doenst want to be. forget it than. i sent megha an sms to appear online. lets see what happens. till than, let me talk to miss bio info, miss Shreya.....

Lord of the ring. it took whole 11 hrs to watch all 3 parts of this epic movie. started at 12 at noon, finished now, at 11.03. the whole fucking day all we did is just watching movie, movie 2 and movie 3....hah !!

last night was a very different, out of this routine life and extra ordinary. if someone has not pick up my phone, has missed a lot of fun. the day started with a routine activvities. but as days passed, i cud feel the groove in the air. mansi was on her job and everybody else was out. but in my back head, i had alreally planned for a saturday night with mansi and PM. so i went to IGA to pick up mansi. and there, i came to know that all other people in the house wanted to join party. so they came to flinders, along with PM and we were just abt to start a wondeful, dancing, grooving, full of fun saturday night. we went to melbourne central lions group pub. its a great place to be. entry was free, so we all just rushed in. music beats were making us dance, but we were happy with tapping feets. nobody wanted to drink, so me and PM had a JUG of STELLA, i love that. its more than 1 ltr in that beer jug. so me and pm started. i think one is not enough for us. so i rushed to the counter, and grabbed another jug. 2 jugs, only for me and PM.. hah !! that was cooooool. i was thrusty for a long time. PM was already at his best with 2-3 glass. but i was on my way to heaven....a long way to go. So, i just slow down and started dancing with Saurin, mansi and PM. its coooool. this was the best scene of the night. there were some 8-10 chinese guys and girls. but when we gujjus started 'garba' on english beats, those chinese guys also jumped in. and i realised that melbourne is really a multi cultural country. it was like........english beats, chinese and gujju guys and we were playing garba. hahh !! it was 'jordaar' scene. this was not enogh, so me and mansi had 'shambhuka shot' hah !! i love it. its cooooool !! and we were at out best. we were the centre of the party. saurin was gr8 on dance floor. and PM/.....he started that unique dance and later on, those chinese guys agian jumped in. it was really fun....i called megha twice, but may be she was not in mood to pick up the damn phone. anyways, we were enjoying alot.
saturday night doent end when we came back home. at bus stop, me, saurin, mansi and tulsi were doing garbas, and those aussies asses were screaming and chearing with us. hah. that was coooool. at home, we had to face another scene, and this one was funnier that the last one. at home, montu and me brought Chivas Regal, not for me and him only, but everyone at home joined party. there was a glass for everyone. everyone, except saurin were "DRUNK". and i mean that. "drunk" means "drunk". hah, and that was really great. so many things happened after that. mansi was like...normal. tulsi was laughing. guddi was crying, juji was angree, montu was quiet, saurin was spectater, and i was ....i dont know where i was. but i kept drinking. and first time in life i felt losing conciousness. i was not ravi, i was someone else, in another world, world not created by damn god. hah !! ha ha ha ! thats wonderful. and this morning..... i hit hard on the earth, created by god. my head is spinning, its not aching, its spinning...than why the hell i m writing a lot............

it was jsut another normal day, started with "khalnayak". its a nice movie. and than me and mansi went to job. just another normal job day. but she didnt turned up today. i sent her a msg, but i think jenny was too busy to come down. anyways, i m not diappointed, as me and mansi were having good time with ivan. i was a bit drunk last night and had a talk with megha last night. its alwys gr8 to have her to talk with. i love it. i love her too. hah ! but you know what i think..........it doesnt matter what i think !!

i m a bit drunk right now. and why shudnt i? it was a free drink at Melbounre Central Pub. its a nice place, i love to be there. next saturday i will be there. i like dark room and heavy noisey metal rock. it makes me feel good. its not a party or dance time, but its only good time with friends. i hate dance parties, or i dont like them much. but i like some good loud music with some drinks and friends. it was a wonderful day. from morning, we applied for some 3-4 houses at camberwell. nice place to live. and after that, me and PM went to melbourne centrar to watch Casino Royale. its a shit movie. looks like a yash raj's love story. fucking story was it. i hated it. but anyways, we had a great drink after that. 2 btls of Stella is good enough. and than, we came down to home. and i m having great time with megha, so i dont wanna waste these moments by blogging here. good night !!

life is strange. and you believe in it when you go out for a long drive from Kew to St Kilda nad Fottscray and roaming around melbourne from 12.30 to 3 am, on dark roads, with PM and mansi, just bcaz you can not sleep. hah, after finishing all things, i went to bed and almost sleeping when mansi came out and said she can not sleep. eventually PM was there, so we 3 guys decided to go for a long drive. so PM drived us trough melbourne CBD, st Kilda, kew, glendferry, camberwell and almost all good places in melbourne. it was great. mansi was very happy and light after that ride. she was feeling very heavy, so she needed to throw out all those rubbish in her small mind, hah. and PM and me helped her to cheer up. and actually we 3 helped eachother to cheer up eachother. and i was a great ride, a long drive, i will remember this one for the rest of my life....

and this morning, we all again started our quest for new house. its great. its a wonderful experience. we really had great day today. we checked out some 3-4 houses, which is really good record. and all those houses were excellent.

at job, i had another remarkable moment of my life as Jenny came down to buy wine with Cherry. after few hrs, she came back to buy Corona. i asked her to join tha party and we strated to drink right outside IGA. it was great. i was on job, and we were drinkning outside. we were talking about abt people arounf us and ourselves. we were talking abt all those good and bad things happned to our lives, we were laughing, and somehow, we were sharing something special to each other. it was cooool. i dont know, but i told her that i m gonna remember these moments for the rest of my life. these are one of the rarest collection of memories of this life.

there is another world inside me, that you may never see.....
there are so many secrets in this eye that i can't hide.....
somewhere in this darkness, there's a light that i can not find....
may be it too far away, or may be i am just blind.....

today was one of the most important day of my life. it was my Graduation day. i m officially graduate today.it was great. all graduates were there with black gown and funny hat. i dont what they call it in latin, but i find it very heavy and funny. it makes me feel sleep, and actually i fell in sleep once. but that lecture was really boring yaar. how can you stop someone from speaking rubbish from that loud speakers. but anyways, it was a memorable day. but on this special occasion, i found myself alone in this alien country. so i forced mansi to come with me. as she is the only best and special friend i have here. yaa, there are so many friends arond, but i had only 2 passes. me and mansi were planning to watch movies, but we are busy with looking around propeties, and handling and baring a serious problem abt some silly people. god knows how he created such minds.
today was the day for boys to prepare dinner, so i decided to make some mix vege and roties. and i must thank all other boys who really prepared that dinner. hah ! i was busy with jenny, as she said she will miss me when i will leave for india. ha ha ha !! is it funny or strange. and than i talked to my parents on phone, and my dad told me that that chinese girl will not be able to cope up in india, so dont think atb her. And i replied " oh . i m not serioud abt her, i m not even thinking abt that topic , i was just kidding. " but i must say my parents are very helpful to me. i m lucky to have such a great family.

searching for a new house is one of the best experience i m having in life. its great. from the morning, me , mansi, montu and tulsi went out to look for another house. it was really hot yrstday, but quite nice windy and cool weather today. it really halped. searching for home online, looking for agents door to door, bagging for keys, and get diappoint for those properties for which we were let. its all fucking awesome. hah !! but its coooool. well, its my graduation ceremony 2moro morning, so i wanna have a nice sleep tonight. and i just tried that black gown and hat. its looks awkward, but it will loook great 2moro. nothing much to write today, it was almost usual day. but i was feeling some good today. feeling good, light and happy !!

its was an abnormal day in this routine life. we all patels, except saurin, who is a legend in himself, and jay, dignesh and bhoomi went to Frankston beach. we had really great day. it was damn hot and we enjoyed that sea bath for 2 hrs. great fun. but last night i was really angree with all people in house. everyone was watching movie with so loud volume, and mansi was sleeping in her room and didnt allow me to sleeep there. so i had to bare montu till early morning. the tourture didnt finish there, so i went out and slept in main room. and i was stucked in that little coach. fuck it. who cares. today was great, so i want forget abt ystrday. and that movie 'aatma' was really funny. well, officially it was horror, but its funny. and me and mansi made it hillarious. oh man, aftr a long time we had such good time. it was great day..

and i got another mail from megha, that make me feel high. i dont know why, but it makes me feel so special that i wanna write a special blog for her. but its 1.15 am, and i m really tired. so megha, you know hwat i want to write. and even if you dont know, who cares. we will talk abt it in private. hah !!

i was fucked up last night. walked all day long, looking for properties, and temp was almost 33-35. and start job at 5 pm. it was worst than that. only me and mansi know how we finished at 11. and worst thing was that i had to start at 8 this morning. and i just cudnt wake up at 7. but wake up at 7.50, got ready in 5 mins and got the bus of 7.59. it was really fast. and it was really busy at IGA. Jessie was there with PM. and it was really great day. we had so many talk today. and she told me that she heard that that chinese girl likes me. even she is not sure, but she think so. i dont know that truth, and that a wonderful state of mind. bcaz half the problem occurs bcaz you know something. when you dont know anything, you are free to do anything. hah !! well, in this case, i m flying back to india in Feb, leaving al things and memories in melbourne. India has its own fantastic life, same here. both life had its own way of enjoying. but i think india is much better, where i can have peace of mind. i dont like very slow life, but i dont want to run after an illusion or mirag. but after finishing at IGA, me and PM went home in his car. its great to have car. its very handy. than we went back to IGA. where i found mansi was crying on phone as she was talking to her mom. and abt whom?? that will make you laugh. sometimes, in life, you face a kinda situation that you dont feel angry, joyful, happy, sad, tired, bored or any other feeling. you just look at that situation and look at you. you just get amazed. its serious, but its funny as well. its one of the most imp decisions in your life, but you can take it in a sec. makes me feel happy for a sec, and amazed on other moment. crazy things happen in life, this is one of them in my life. its abt me and mansi. we are like tracks of train, who are with each other for a long journey, but we never meet each other, and will not be. but nature has its own plans. but i think we wont let that happen, do we?? but i dont think abt the result of this situation, i just enjoy being in this situation, just like all other strange situations. this is one the most funny and owkward situation i had till now. its funny. and one more thing that jessie told me today. its funny too. i proposed so many girls, but no one gave me positive reply. for the first time in life, a nice girl is interested in me, but i cant move a inch forward. its shit, but its funny. shit things happen in life. tomorrow, in future, i m gonna look at these moments and will laugh, just laugh......

this world is a very cruel place. pain of one is joy for other. defeat of one is victory for other. and some people talk abt god. hah !! i am not even sure about his existance. its not that i m against him, but i m not by his side as well. i believe discrimination is the biggest sin human can committ. but how god can do that?? sometimes i wonder watching those children in air condition cars, screaming for Big Mac at McDonalds, toys and ice creams, new clothes, special gifts every christmas. and when i look at those pictures from middle east and africa, i hardly differenciate a skaleton and those black, skinny, hungry, naked, barefoot, uneducated, homeless children. how can god do this to their children? this is not fair. and i cant help it but watch this. of ocurse, i would like to do what ever i can.
watched ivan's video. it was cooool. he is a great man and good phylosopher. i believe a man can be a happy man if he has a nice wife, otherwise he becomes a phylosopher. hah !! just kidding. no offence jessie. just like ivan, even i get upset at beach. i dont know why but it makes me feel so down. its like yellow colour, anti-energy, or say energy sucker. so i prefer not to go there. but how can i forget taht 31st December 2005. it was one of the most beautiful nights in this life. it was the first time i got drunk. getting drunk is a great light feeling. sometimes i jsut get tired of being rational and wise. sometimes i just want to unfold myself, lose control, lost track, fall in love, sleep in arms, talk about stupid things, want to be stupid, fly naked, kiss that girl, scream, sing along with radio, stay awake all night counting stars with her, and so many other things. when i get drunk, i can lose myself. actually i believe that there are 2 person inside me. one is wise and makes rational decision. and another just believe in fun and enjoyment. he doesnt care abt all shit of world, just listen to music, dance, watch movies, spend money, makes wrong decisions and laugh at those bad decisions. but sometimes, i jsut get myself stucked between these 2 guys....

it was a fucking long day. i want to cross the limits and dont want to type any ***** here. it was fucking boring at IGA. just want to call someone and talk a lot, talk abt anything. tired of talking to myself. i want a surprise, or a miracle to escape myself. but there was no body to talk with. everybody is fucking busy with their own problems. when you call someone, reply comes "i m at job", "i m busy, doing assignments" and all other shit. May be someone from india, but all friends are preapring for exams. Megha replied after along time, and handed me a lolipop that she will come back soon !! hah !! mansi is facing some tough time these days. so i m not teasing her too much. otherwise, i wud have ate her mind, but as she is facing some blackouts bcaz of blood or himoglobin problems, i prefered to do this later. Than to whom i can give a ring. i went trough all phone contacts in mobile, but no one was there to call. than suddenly fucking god appear, as he is all time free to talk with me. He is such a fucking idiot. PM came to grab that keys when i told him abt this fucking god. this fucking god left me in a situation where i cant move ahead, nor go backward. its like i m stuck with something in trought that i cant swallow, not trough out. i was really more happy before that fucking night. that night left me its black marks on my mind. i hate this feelings. its like being in a deungone. and i want to get out of it. its all dark in here. its only me to whom i can talk. but i rather scream out for help. and all i hear is nothing but laughing god and that girl. and i fucking think why the fuck i m here. why the fuck god created me? hey god, i think you are fucking tired and bored. dont you have anything interesting to do than fucking up my life? !! btw, i got my black gown that i will wear on graduation ceremony on 12th Dec 2006 !!

f**k the f***ing day of f***ing life. its was really a f***ing day.. i had to wake up at 7 and go to f***ing job. and had lods of work to do. i was almost f***ed up at 4. but got some dvds to relax at night. but the day was f**ing hot today. and it was a tens kinda atmosphere at home, so everybody was f***ing each other, it was like f***ing cold war was going on in home. damn f***ing things f***ed me up again. but it was all calm down later. i dont know what kinda relations people have?? its all f***ing temptations and lust. F***ing people just want to keep f***ing. but PM drived dwon his new second hand toyota home. so we went to a long small drive. it is a sexy car, damn f***ing sexy, as i was f***ing it after driving it. hah !!

me and mansi were at IGA on sunday evening where i <> jenny as she was home. and she was really estonished by hearing my voice on her intercom. hah ! she was confused and a bit frightned !! hah...it was funny, even mansi was there. it was coooool !! i will do that again ! ha ha ha !!

hah, its was the day for saurin. he turned 25 today. but .......but but but.......but mansi was the showgirl for today. i dont know what happened to her, but she was behaving like 'channel 9', and than we tried to turn the channel to 'star tv' and 'zee news'!! and 'parsi bavaa' for some time. it was really funny. but not food. Banjaaraa was the WORST place i ever had been for dinner. it was really sucking. the food colour is still on my fingers, dark red. and i feel that 'garam masala' in my stomach. but above all, while returning to home, me and mansi had some talk abt something that was really shocking and strange. but what can we do? we cant solve this problem, as its unique in its way. before that, me and mansi went to gym, where she revealed some matters !! it was really shocking and funny to certain extent.

i just had some Jack Deniel's, 3 or 4, i dont know !! hah ! its the best feeling i can ever have. its Saurins's BD, and we had lots of fun. the journey began from this morning where we all had bearkfast togather. and than we went to city, where we met 'minoo', a very unique and interesting new character in my life. I'll talk abt this later, but now let me tell you that we had some champagne and desert wine and Jack Deniel's. and all people are crying and exploring and revealing all those secreats!! its fun, sotimes. I m not in conditition to write any shit, so i m stopping here. yaa, one more thing, William is another Character in this life. talk abt him later.

its like i m f***ed up !! i finished at 11 last night and started again at 8 this morning. 1 hr of transportation is not included !! at 2 pm today, i was almost dead !! but who cares. what else i had to do. just make fun and do jobs. hah !! bought a new dvd rom. it is a gr8 reliefe to have it. it took me some 4-5 hrs to install windows. and one HDD was almost dead during thta operation. but i dont time time to write about all shit things !! so just F*** off !!

hey, wanna know abt melbourne's weather??? ystrday, i was waiting for tram at Burke St. it was hot outside, so i decided to have some fappucino from starbucks. i went in there, and when i came out, i really wished i would have ordered some hot coffee !! hah !! it was so capricious and unpredictable !! same with mansi. i remember how upset she was last night, and this morning too. but thanks to khushi, that a little talk with her made mansi feel so light that she was really cheeered up. i was trying to keep that smile on her face all the time, but somehow khushi was her special friend that she could do that from 10,000 miles away !! and i am not that special one, neither i have any special friend. and i dont neeed one either, bcaz most of the time, i find my problems so funny that i can make good jokes out of it and make people laugh. hah!! may be its a god gift that i can make any serious situation very funny !! remember that accident on Goa Bombay Road. hah ! nothing could be as serious as an accident in middle of a jungle at night. but i was busy to make them laugh. hah !! i dont know its stupidity of someting else !! but mansi was very happy today. may be not so happy, but may be more relaxed to ommitt all those rubbish she was holding in her heart for a long time. i tried to help her, but may be she needed khushi to listen to her. and thats all right. their conversation at IGA solved this problem to a certain extent. may be she will get rid of these feelings pretty soon !!